Why does evil always win?

[Hilarion]

In my journey I experienced a great need to disassociate from the collective in order to heal my own mind and body without the continued interference of others. I used to read a lot of conspiracy theories and this was sort of necesarry for a bit to break thorugh all the programming and lies that go on in society and to give me enough courage and determination to turn my back on that way of living. However holding on to this conspiritorial way of thinking is only holding onto the original wound. I realised that a lot of conspiracy based thinking is unbalanced and not an unbiased view of the collective. By ressonating with conspiracy I was sort of allowing it a place in my manifestations. I realised that in my past I had been lied to and hurt and this caused me to be very cynical about others. Once hurt by peoples lies I went 100% the other way into full protection mode and belived that everybody lies and that nobody can be trusted.

One thing I realised about conspiracy theories is that when I started meditating propoerly I realised most people don't understand absolutly nothing about their own mind and the inner forces inside of themselves. How can someone control the outside world if they can't even control themselves. It is harder to rule the empire within that the empire outside as it says in the bible... "He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that ruleth his spirit than he that taketh a city."

It is only when I really went into myself and took total responsibilty for my mind and reality that I was able to see on a very intricate way how others where effecting me.

I cultivated a much greater power of discernment and this grew my centredness and increased my power of speech. This allowed me sculpt my own reality much more and make it better.