Has Anyone Here Opened up to Intelligent Infinity?

[Dtris]

If you feel balanced, even in the lower centers, but feel a tiny bit jumpy
is that the ego dissolving? It's what it feels like.

Personally I don't fin the dissolve the ego concept to be a super useful one. The ego should be more properly thought of as the part of our self which interacts with the outside world. As long as we interact with the outside world, then we need and we will have an ego. What needs to be dissolved is the boundary the ego like to set up from the deeper parts of the self.

The ego is threatened by deep states of consciousness because it can feel like the self is in danger. Our ego has built up an elaborate set of traits and interactions and actions which are conditioned and part of our personality. When any of these traits are threatened the ego becomes defensive. This is the biggest barrier to real change. Meditation allows the ego to be bypassed and deeper parts of the self accessed. Changes can then be made basically at the administrator level (inner self) and bypass the user (ego or outer self).

The jump feeling could be because the ego is threatened depending on what changes you are making. If you feel like you keep getting distracted when it is time to meditate, or just one more video, or one more forum post, or even a general feeling of apprehension towards meditation, that can be the ego trying to preserve itself.

It sounds dumb, by I have found that reassuring the ego that nothing bad will happen and that only good changes will happen is one way of working through this.