01-24-2011, 11:21 AM
(01-24-2011, 12:36 AM)Bring4th_GLB Wrote: J, if you don't mind sharing, what are these energies which disturb your equanimity and cause the holding on for dear life?
Well, the "holding on for dear life" is just my dramatization of not being able to concentrate. I'm struggling with how to calm a wandering mind.
As for the energies, you and I discussed a little bit of this in a private email. The gist of it is that, lo and behold, I have identified blockages. I have identified energy signatures to these blockages - in other words, it seems useful that I have a taste, if you will, for the energies above and beyond how they manifest in thoughts and actions. What I'm struggling with is how to put this to effective use, and/or how to maintain patience to allow the most effective use to occur to me naturally.
I am attempting to start working with these energy signatures in a manner that is regularized and sustainable. The reason this is important, to my mind, is so that I do not need to put all my spiritual eggs in the basket of immediate results. So "holding on for dear life" is to me about cultivating a patience that I'll get there and that I'm not wasting my time.
I desire to understand the blockages, and my primary tool so far has been the attempt at acceptance. So that has been the practice area for concentration - being able to identify energies within the self and attempt to accept them, though I feel like I'm stumbling around when I execute on the "accept" part.
Anything you or anybody could say to what I've written above would be appreciated.