Is STO doing things?

[Louisabell]

And just to get it straight, YES I agree that posting on this site CAN be an act of service. I have met a number of people who have helped me quite a bit on this site. Agua and Reaper especially. Agua even posted some useful stuff in THIS thread.

But I DON'T think the stuff they post on this site is the service EITHER is best suited for. I think it is ONE aspect of their service.

So do I agree contributing on the forum is a service? Yes. Do I think it's a good idea to say "This might be the BEST service you're suited for"? No.

Also, I am aware laziness can be a virtue of efficiency, but that is NOT what I am talking about and that is NOT the problem I am seeing with your assertion as you worded it. I didn't read your post and think to myself "Oh! She's promoting making things easy and time efficient! That's No true service"

I thought "Oh s***, she's telling a guy who spends A LOT of time on this site that the time he spends on this site might be 'the best form of service suited for him' and that could EASILY get taken the wrong way"

And if you feel I took it the wrong way, well, CASE IN POINT.

I am not saying "laziness bad" I am saying "NOT DOING MUCH and just feeling love is not an act of service, just because you post on a forum while you do it" I'm not even saying it's something to feel bad about. I am just saying that no, it's not really all that STO. Not really. I'm just asying to CALL A SPADE A SPADE.

Who am I yelling at?

Nobody.


Oh, and this:

"Who should I be? Who do you want me to be, shall we discuss it?"

A) we are discussing it already, and B) It doesn't matter who I want you to be.

All I'm saying is, if you want to be STO don't pretend that's what you're being if you make "contributing to an internet forum" the "best service for you" while you adopt the notion that one is certainly a wanderer and therefore the type that must be just sent here to raise the vibration or some s*** like that. I have heard enough of that and I REALLY think it's a bad notion.

The question is WHAT DO YOU want to be? Do you want to be the person whose definition of serving others is "rasing the vibration" and sending love without doing much else because posting on an internet forum is the service best suited for you?

Or do you want to be somebody who does the STO thing?

Or somebody else?

All I'm saying is BE HONEST about it.

I don't actually care what you do, I just think it's a bad idea not to be honest about it.

Also, I don't think the wanderer identity helps most people. I think it's actually in most cases kind of an ego trap. And I think when people think they're wanderers, or lightworkers, or starseeds or whatever, they start to get all kinds of unhelpful notions based on that concept.

ESPECIALLY if they don't even know. If you haven't pierced the veil or been told by someone who has, I don't think it's a good idea to assume. Actually, even THOSE two I am at this point becoming skeptical of. I am becoming INCREASINGLY aware that stuff is not as it seems. And I think that's what's bothering me here: Stuff isn't as it seems, and yet thinking that it is, or thinking that it is what one wants it to be... it's like... I worry it's inherently limiting. Like a cage.

I dunno. What I'm saying is, this kind of stuff we tell ourselves? Often bullshit and often keeps us down.

EP, you have a pretty high standard of what service we should all be doing.

Why exactly is performing the service of contributing on a forum so inadequate? In my opinion it is a fine service depending on the spirit it is done in. There are some contributors here who are especially consistent, generous with their time and attention, and are a source of love and light which comes through from their words. These people provide a comfort that is beyond the words on a screen. Their presence here is a comfort.

Please tell me why this service is so horribly inadequate. I don't see a lot of better examples of service in the general population. Most people consume media, they don't create much content of inspirational quality. And even then, who am I to say? Who am I to know the heart behind a task that is performed?

It is wonderful that these discussions are even occurring, that when I find breaks in my busy life I can join into conversations that feed aspects of my soul that aren't so easily looked at in ordinary life. Even your candid off-loading contributions inspire those darker aspects of the self which demands only that which is real. The degree of anonymity that this forum offers is a form of freedom not available in the life where bills must be paid.

Before we do good in this world, we must first stop doing harm. Before we save the world, we must put our immediate affairs in order first. The service we are doing right now IS the service we are best suited for, because it is by definition, the service that we do. That does not mean we cannot change. Nothing is permanent. But first, why not just focus on what you're now doing, and do it as well as you can.

Why do we continue to self-flagellate? What purpose does it serve?

I asked you if you knew me because the question itself is as ridiculous as summing up the whole contribution of one's life in a few off-hand statements. I am yet to know myself, who could know the conscious being behind an internet moniker? Nothing is truly known. I'm sorry to all here, I cannot confirm if anyone here is a wanderer, but if we're discussing the topic of STO, then why not discuss wanderers? I see so much desire here to do good in the world and insecurity of not being good enough. Well, you are all good enough, you always were and always will be. You can't bring me down from this high EP , it ain't gonna happen