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[Black Dragon]

So I have an issue.

I'll use Nine Inch Nails as an example, but this could apply to any number of musical artists.

One of my favorite bands for a long time has been Nine Inch Nails. Since I awakened, I recognized that their music is of a largely negative nature, and it puts me in a negative mindset / vibration.

At times, their music gives me a feeling of power, the desire to dominate, and at other times, their music seems to make me unconsciously manifest deeply traumatic situations mirroring certain self-destructive lyrics / themes (such as "The Downward Spiral," or the lyric "thought he lost everything, then he lost a whole lot more.")

Of course, I could listen to it with the mindset that I'm listening for a cathartic experience, to cope with and purge myself of negativity, but that seemingly creates another loop where I associate the pleasure of music and purging with finding myself in those negative situations in the first place, and then I may unconsciously seek out further negative situations so I can have the enjoyment of purging them.

Does anyone have input on this?

I'll try my best. The latter part I will address first not for orderly concerns, but because it hits first. The last small paragraph sounds like trying to find meaning/purpose in conflict(either with others/outside forces, or in this case yourself). This is a tough cookie. It's something I've identified within myself and I don't yet have a definitive answer to. Look at the deeper spiritual aspects of the red ray. look for what gives you meaning and purpose beyond conflict and lesser polarity struggles. Another interpretation is that you are not seeking those situations for this reason, but because in a lot of ways you are ignoring looking at your shadow side and it is crying out to be recognized and healed, and through this music it can connect and communicate with you and at least somewhat get you to acknowledge it.

I still listen to heavy metal and used to even more so in my teen years. Some of the stuff I would listen to in the past and occasionally is more along the negative lines too. Metal is deep and honest, intense, and heart-felt music. Even plants that hate pop and mainstream metal grow well exposed to some very heavy genres because of how the music is structured. You may desire this more than the lyrical content itself...in which case there's badass positive metal out there for you to explore(not positive necessarily as in happy-go-lucky or ignoring the shadow, but positive overall in a deep and healing way). Maybe try Scar Symmetry-specifically the album "Holographic Universe".

I hope this helps.