Dark Night, Hatred, Shadow Work, and Acceptance(Please Pray for Me).

[Minyatur]

Well the first thing I'd like to point out is the Law of One. You seem to be separating beings a lot and in the idea that this would be a paradox of some sort then it is somewhat a dead end in resolving things. The other thing is that you seem to make a whole lot of assumptions about beings you probably know very little about. While I don't think it is inexcusable per say, it does seem to me somewhat insincere in addressing one's own anger. It might be easier to release it if you address it as being just your own anger, rather than justify it to remain through external actors.

Regarding unconditional love, I am not sure if this is a suggestion you will like, but I would recommend trying MDMA. Not ecstasy/molly/whatever, but the actual white as-pure-as-you-can-find-it MDMA. There is a lot of information about it on the web, so you can read about what it can enable you to experience.

Having experienced it, this article seemed not bad in explaining things about it:
https://thedea.org/mdma-ecstasy-molly-us...-the-high/

First time users often say that MDMA was a lot of fun, as expected…but it also left them changed in some small way. They viewed the world with a little more optimism. They viewed themselves and their lives with more compassion. They were more able to be open and trusting of others. There is, of course, a good neurological reason for this: Part of MDMA’s effect is to enhance learning mechanisms in your brain (or, as the animal behavioralists might put it, “MDMA enhances the acquisition of conditioned responses.”) Almost every experience we have in life becomes part of us, recorded in our brains as algorithms and weighted variables about who and what we are and what the world around us is. A traumatic experience can profoundly damage that sense of self and perspective on the world. By the same token, an ecstatic experience (to use the religious sense of the word) can elevate and expand it. For someone who doubts whether they deserve to be loved, what is it worth to know with every fiber of your being that you are loved? For someone who has suffered horribly, what is it worth to find a moment of perfect peace and grace?

MDMA can be a religious experience without the religion. It doesn’t tell people what to think or believe or do: It shows them a glimpse of what the human experience is capable of being like. MDMA can bring out the best in the human soul.

That feeling of rightness and peace will fade over the coming days and weeks, but that doesn’t mean it has to go away completely. An ecstatic experience will always be a part of you in some small way, regardless of how it was produced.

To me MDMA really opens the heart ray and enables a deep sense of empathy toward both yourself and others. If you try this approach, I would deeply suggest that at some point you try to empty your thoughts and just deeply focus on your breathing/heart, this might very well be the nicest thing you will have experienced in your life and might just be what you are looking for. In this state, it's like breathing sanctifies and purifies your being.