Can you accept being a loser in this world?

[Sacred Fool]

It's ironically a selfish comment I made and I'm sure I am not yet one of the individuals that has moved into that kind of grace you mentioned.

I suppose it is, but likewise, it's a totally natural comment given amount of light you seem to be processing.  (I'm not making an evaluation of your status, just saying that the amount of love and light you are metabolizing, as it were, will be reflected in your decisions and comments, etc.)

I still have a very long way to go and I'm unfortunately not expecting any real growth from myself.

Well, you may feel you have a long way to go on one level (seeking balance and the ability to receive light and love), but on the other hand, how far away is your own heart?  Of course, I don't know you irl, but I'm guessing that it's very, very close to you during every minute of the day.  (Which is to say, it's the craftsmanship and discipline of learning to use your instrument that takes time, not the acquisition of the instrument....you already hold it in your hand, if you will.)