(03-06-2020, 11:56 PM)sillypumpkins Wrote:(03-06-2020, 11:39 PM)Surfboard Wrote: That is what I would have to do to receive healing. Leave her safety net behind.
I don’t know why but I don’t receive healing from my mom. The love i need just isn’t there.
Uh huh, I see. That makes a little more sense.
I concur with flo, perhaps it would be worthwhile to experiment with different diets if you haven't done so already? these things take time to show results so you'd have to stick to it for a little while. I know you said you tried and didn't succeed. (you know what they say right?)
what kind of grounding exercises do you do? what's your spiritual practice like?
I don’t have any right now. Every time I try I just irritate my gut.
My whole life I keep slimming my diet down as my digestion systems weakens and it’s to the point where I have to do something drastic.
It’s my only chance of survival and I have come to terms with it.
The hard part is I cannot prepare for it. It comes around every once in awhile and requires a large amount of faith. Like a faith that can heal. It comes in a wave and this time I’m gonna follow the love. I couldn’t leave my mom the first time. I cried and cried with her because I knew what I was gonna have to do.
It feels as if it’s a spiral stair case and I get on the first step and fall down. Meaning I can’t just start climbing, I have to wait for a cycle.