I’m a channel in need of help

[Surfboard]

Greetings Surfboard,

This seems a very silly question, but could you ground yourself enough to heal your gut first ? It seems silly, but more and more recently it comes out that bringing health to a gut is highly transformative. Would you have the means and energy to heal it ? I know it sounds very far from the spiritual quest you are after, but would you be able to do so ?

I have tried in the past but have never succeeded.
The harder I try to ground myself the more my colon stresses.

Imagine you have no money, no place to stay, and no food to eat.
You have nothing needed to survive.
You start to beg people, most of them don’t pay you any mind and some tell you to get a job. You thank them for their time and move on, you appreciate them because you have nothing.
A day later someone offers to take you home with them for a night and to feed you. How grateful would you be? Wouldn’t your whole body fill up with love? It just sounds so electrifying.

This seems to be the only energy that can truly heal me.