How do STS-beings meditate?

[EvolvingPhoenix]

Do they just do the mindfulness meditation in order to open the gateway to intelligent infinity?
I'm really curious, perhaps they're meditating on hatred instead of compassion?

I am a person of negative polarity who operates to create awareness through the illumination of problems. I don't know if you could call me STS. I operate for the good of humanity and for the problems and heart break that there is here in this density.
I meditate on issues my heart recognizes as problems and ask myself, "how can i fix this?"

My meditations are not peaceful. They are an exercise in logic and an exploration of complex issues. I can get lost for hours on my searches and sometimes I chase the rabbit down the burrow and never ever find him but sometimes I emerge out the other end as the rabbit itself.

It's beautiful for me. It's of great pleasure. I love what I do even though I do take damage from my polarity.

You meditate on logic? I don't get it. Isn't that just THINKING?

This. The intellect by itself is a rather blunt and lacking tool, as much as it can seem so important and powerful. As somebody that's extremely intellectually oriented, I can say that the mind will be a drawback if you let it dominate you. The mind will run into some walls it just can't penetrate and then make you obsess over finding the answers. I've been down so many rabbit holes that it all starts to lose meaning and I realized I just want to be happy and be myself.

Yeah, I totally getcha. I'm a navel gazer too. There's a reason why Ra and Q-uo and all them say to seek love before wisdom: First off, without imbuing it with meaning through meaningful action, wisdom is just masturbation. Secondly, without unconditional love, wisdom essentially becomes an escape from truth about yourself that you do not want to accept unconditionally. Hell, even if it's true, the s*** you ponder becomes a drug.

EDIT: I should say the s*** you ponder becomes a drug, because there is comfort and control in pondering. Notice that the STS self project all these fucking criticisms onto the STO?

"Don't wanna leave their comfort zone" "Just wants to feel good" "Just wants validation" "Self Righteous" "Self Serving" "stems out of a desire to dissociate, project and live out a fantasy reality instead of taking personal responsibility and dealing with the harsh truths of life." etc.

STO do it too, but notice how to graduate STO, you only gotta be A LITTLE more STO than STS to graduate? STS need to be almost entirely STS, and they STILL do that s***. Do you think a being of almost pure STO orientation would be so focused on self projection? The whole point of their path is HEALING and learning to LIKE the true self, however mysterious that is. STS want to CONTROL that s***, because even at a point of almost pure STS orientation, they STILL don't like the truth.

How do the STS know that the reason STO adepts are like that is cause they're STO? Maybe it's because there's still some negativity in 'em and THAT is what they are having to learn how to slowly accept and THAT is the part of them that can't handle the truth. THE PART STILL BASED IN EGO. STS NEVER want to accept that s***. They want to FIX it. To CONTROL it. Because they don't like the TRUE self. They prefer the ILLUSORY self.

So you just sit there, navel-gazing so you can avoid FACING s***. And if you do that for too long, I guess you eventually lose the opportunity to enter your heart willingly, and the call to adventure comes in it's shadow form and drags you out of your comfort zone, kicking and screaming, and FORCES you upon the call to adventure, which at that point becomes brutal and dark. And the adventure is based in egoistic illusion rather than truth, because the illusion can hurt, but to those not willing to meet it with faith and love, the TRUTH can hurt even more. At least that's what I'm gleaning in my non-expert opinion.

The ego is based in mental constructs that serve the purpose of avoiding scary truth by replacing it with convincing falsehood, which can still be immensely painful, but at least it's digestible... AND CONTROLLABLE. So is the path of STS seeking, it seems.

Keyword: SEEMS.

As in, I don't pretend to REALLY know what I am talking about, SO PLEASE TAKE IT WITH A GRAIN OF SALT.