Wanderers and their odd metaphysical connection

[Black Dragon]

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I'm going to pause or cut short here for now, because I think this is a pretty big introductory, though there is so much more subtle stuff, a lot of which is more strictly metaphysical and less "conspiracy" oriented. As far as the original question "made contact with something higher than yourself", yes and no. Yes in the sense that I have undoubtedly made contact with higher aspects of my self, archetypal experiences, and higher density beings in dream state, and likely had one or two more or less physical/onboard a craft type experiences with advanced 3d or 4d beings, which I cannot remember in great detail. No in the sense that there's nothing higher than you, or me, or any other being. God's a democracy, not a kingdom-we are all "cells in the body of Christ" so to speak.

I meant to say “higher than 3rd density”. See my response to Glowing Eyes.

Anyhow, I understand. I went through a lot of confusion as a child with things going on around me. I dealt with a lot of fear as well. I really wasn’t comfortable with it all till I was 30. Now I think it’s time I spoke a little about it. At least talk with others that can relate. It’s difficult when there’s no one to talk to so feel free to say whatever you wish as far as I’m concerned.

I'm 30 now and still not quite comfortable. I'm in a pretty weakened and stunted state from what I think I should be, sort of still in the process of a sort of prolonged dark night of the soul/shadow integration period that's been going on for about the last seven years or so at least and still not sure when I'll get clear. A few years back seeking through all sorts of occult and metaphysical and UFO related stuff, I poured over all the material on this site and lurked the forums often without ever making a profile or posting. For the last couple years I kinda layed off this site and did more seeking within, slowing down with the metaphysical and channeled material reading and studying as far as this site and various other sources. I still more often than not would read the quote of the day and check for new channeling transcripts, but that was it, then on with my day. I still don't know if this is the place for me, how long I'll stay, or how fruitful and of my posts or discussions will be here. There is a lot of good and genuine seeking here but there's also this sort of energy in the mix that's both really heavy and stagnant and really ungrounding at the same time. I'm not the first one to notice or mention this, I think another user said it looked like some nasty oil slick or something in his visualization. As messed up and distorted as I am at this point I still felt a need in some way to at least share a bit and try and bring some new more expansive type of energies to the table here. Maybe if things look good I'll post a big and full wanderer story in the section for it and lay it all on the table, but not sure I'm that comfortable yet.

I can say I'm pretty certain I've had dream state experiences with higher than 3d energies. I'm not sure if these experiences were really with other beings, the hazy impressions mostly point to archetypal and higher-self type stuff, but there's a couple indicators or vague impressions of a dialogue between me and possibly another entity, or maybe it was just me and other aspects of me. Like I said, there were other anomalous experiences that also pointed to maybe some sort of experiences onboard craft. None of this is stuff I have a vivid memory of, just bits and pieces, as I've not undergone any regression or unlocked any of it through my own efforts. However it goes, I have been viewing this site for a long time, so I also felt the need to just share and get some things off my chest. Thank you for sharing and giving me an opening to do so as well.