03-03-2020, 04:28 AM
A lifetime of too much stuff, a lot of which is really subtle and would take a long time to explain and even pull to mind. main points-seeing "designs" as a child when I closed my eyes(fractals, no words at the time). This wasn't understood or received very well when I tired to explain it-so I more or less shut it the F* off and didn't mention it again. I liked to think about inventing stuff as a young kid, and one of the things I thought of was a "wingless plane" that just flew with "electricity". This went over about as well as the fractals thing when I tried to talk about it to my pops, who worked on actual planes that required wings and visible means of propulsion and whatnot. Tons of weird dreams, some nightmares where I would be silenced and paralyzed, and then start being pulled upward. To where? Can't remember that part, though I can theorize, and I felt helpless.
Quite a few dreams weren't those type of nightmares,maybe more positive or neutral feeling but weird nonetheless. One that sticks out in my mind, I was sort of displaced in space in sort of this...broader overview, template sort of place or vantage point, and told I was in "the real Star Wars". I was never a huge star wars buff, and had only played a Nintendo 64 Star Wars video game and hadn't even viewed the movies at that point in my life. What the hell is an eight year old kid to make of that? This is all the overtly weird stuff, not to mention just not fitting in with normal society and having different viewpoints on a lot of stuff, such as authority, which I'd eventually end up digging a bit and learn probably has connections to the whole "Star Wars" thing.
My exposure to the Christian faith and questioning of many thing I found there, especially regarding the old testament, is another. As a child, long before being exposed to anything liked the Ra material, I already believed there was some sort of deception and tomfoolery going on with the bible, and that if this god of the old testament was real, it wasn't what it claimed to be. When I "invited Jesus into my life", I only questioned more, as if he really was now over my shoulder telling me to follow my heart and that this old testament stuff was a crock. I started to, well, this is kind of a rough and polarized way to put it...but to "smell the stench of my enemies" in this old testament, and many of the modern secular institutions that run our society, such as the "millitary industrial complex".
When I was a teen, I never read any conspiracy theories. I saw the movie Cloverfield and when I asked why the ending was so dumb, that they got all the way as far as they did trying to escape the aliens just to get bombed by the military(or in my words at the time, "Pig F*ed".) Would it really go down like that, I asked, and the answer was yes...because it's all a numbers game for them and they thing of containment first. I was watching a lot of Gundam animes, in which they discuss endless cycles of war and show the good and bad on both sides. One of those shows took it to the next level and portrayed a group that had been working for centuries to foment wars in which they played both sides for their own profit, and then somebody exposed them and people were ganging up and dragging them out of their houses and cars to beat them to death. I saw the movie the fourth kind where the alien says "I am God" in Sumerian, and researched the Sumerian civilization leading to all of that mumbo jumbo I'm sure most here are way too familiar with. Eventually the pattern and synchronicity hit me like a ton of bricks and I tied in all those things to the deception I felt in the old testament and aspects of the modern scientific institutions. I felt something was very wrong. This is all the more negative, conspiracy, hatred of authority stuff coming to a head, a lot based probably on biases formed in past lives....but also in wisdom seeing through STS BS.
I'm going to pause or cut short here for now, because I think this is a pretty big introductory, though there is so much more subtle stuff, a lot of which is more strictly metaphysical and less "conspiracy" oriented. As far as the original question "made contact with something higher than yourself", yes and no. Yes in the sense that I have undoubtedly made contact with higher aspects of my self, archetypal experiences, and higher density beings in dream state, and likely had one or two more or less physical/onboard a craft type experiences with advanced 3d or 4d beings, which I cannot remember in great detail. No in the sense that there's nothing higher than you, or me, or any other being. God's a democracy, not a kingdom-we are all "cells in the body of Christ" so to speak.
Quite a few dreams weren't those type of nightmares,maybe more positive or neutral feeling but weird nonetheless. One that sticks out in my mind, I was sort of displaced in space in sort of this...broader overview, template sort of place or vantage point, and told I was in "the real Star Wars". I was never a huge star wars buff, and had only played a Nintendo 64 Star Wars video game and hadn't even viewed the movies at that point in my life. What the hell is an eight year old kid to make of that? This is all the overtly weird stuff, not to mention just not fitting in with normal society and having different viewpoints on a lot of stuff, such as authority, which I'd eventually end up digging a bit and learn probably has connections to the whole "Star Wars" thing.
My exposure to the Christian faith and questioning of many thing I found there, especially regarding the old testament, is another. As a child, long before being exposed to anything liked the Ra material, I already believed there was some sort of deception and tomfoolery going on with the bible, and that if this god of the old testament was real, it wasn't what it claimed to be. When I "invited Jesus into my life", I only questioned more, as if he really was now over my shoulder telling me to follow my heart and that this old testament stuff was a crock. I started to, well, this is kind of a rough and polarized way to put it...but to "smell the stench of my enemies" in this old testament, and many of the modern secular institutions that run our society, such as the "millitary industrial complex".
When I was a teen, I never read any conspiracy theories. I saw the movie Cloverfield and when I asked why the ending was so dumb, that they got all the way as far as they did trying to escape the aliens just to get bombed by the military(or in my words at the time, "Pig F*ed".) Would it really go down like that, I asked, and the answer was yes...because it's all a numbers game for them and they thing of containment first. I was watching a lot of Gundam animes, in which they discuss endless cycles of war and show the good and bad on both sides. One of those shows took it to the next level and portrayed a group that had been working for centuries to foment wars in which they played both sides for their own profit, and then somebody exposed them and people were ganging up and dragging them out of their houses and cars to beat them to death. I saw the movie the fourth kind where the alien says "I am God" in Sumerian, and researched the Sumerian civilization leading to all of that mumbo jumbo I'm sure most here are way too familiar with. Eventually the pattern and synchronicity hit me like a ton of bricks and I tied in all those things to the deception I felt in the old testament and aspects of the modern scientific institutions. I felt something was very wrong. This is all the more negative, conspiracy, hatred of authority stuff coming to a head, a lot based probably on biases formed in past lives....but also in wisdom seeing through STS BS.
I'm going to pause or cut short here for now, because I think this is a pretty big introductory, though there is so much more subtle stuff, a lot of which is more strictly metaphysical and less "conspiracy" oriented. As far as the original question "made contact with something higher than yourself", yes and no. Yes in the sense that I have undoubtedly made contact with higher aspects of my self, archetypal experiences, and higher density beings in dream state, and likely had one or two more or less physical/onboard a craft type experiences with advanced 3d or 4d beings, which I cannot remember in great detail. No in the sense that there's nothing higher than you, or me, or any other being. God's a democracy, not a kingdom-we are all "cells in the body of Christ" so to speak.
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