Serving others and marijuana

[sillypumpkins]

First and foremost, this post is not to glorify drugs or drug use. It's to give my own experience, and simply that.

I'm replying to this as someone who's smoked a lot (A LOT!) of weed and also a fair amount of drug use. I'm 35 now, but when I first smoked weed in high school, I thought it was amazing and was able to perceive things/reality in a new light or perspective. I remember specifically thinking the first time I got high that everyone was lying to me about not doing drugs and that marijuana was fun and insightful. At age 20/21, I turned into a huge pothead. I'll also add, I tripped really heavily on mushrooms for the first time at that age also, and that was an experience I can't fully explain; that one experience condensed and surpassed all other spiritual/religious experiences at that time in my life, and it was something I was not expecting. I know now, and I found out even before I discovered (or it found me) the Law of One material that hallucinogenic drugs are or can be deeply spiritual. It says this about LSD- "There are many upon your plane who have a random hole or gateway in their spirit energy field, sometimes created by the ingestion of chemicals such as, what this instrument would call LSD, who are able, randomly and without control, to tap into energy sources." I was having experiences where I was communing and interacting with "beings of light and love,' 'The Creator,' etc. etc.

On one hand, hallucinogenic drugs have been an amazing gift and adventure in my life. They helped open me up in ways to explore and seek the truth that I know would have been nearly impossible without those experiences. A person can read and study this material or other religious paths, but hallucinogenics is almost a 'shortcut'- it's an actual experience. My soul and spirit became known to me through such use. I experienced Love, not just contemplated it. Yet, on the other hand, there's a very serious danger or risk related. Doing heavy doses of hallucinogenics can be scary at times; medically it's a severe drug induced psychosis. There can definitely be a sort of Matrix "red pill" impact where you discover a new deeper reality but come through the other side just to be equally more confused with having experienced a deeper truth but struggle to find or be able to put it in into context in this 'normal reality.' For me, it was worth it and greatly desired. I wanted the truth at any cost. I identify greatly with this statement from Ra- " Each seeker will experience each archetype in the characteristics within the complex of the archetype which are most important to it. An example of this would be the observation of the questioner that the Fool is described in such and such a way. One great aspect of this archetype is the aspect of faith, the walking into space without regard for what is to come next. This is, of course, foolish but is part of the characteristic of the spiritual neophyte. " To say I "walked into space without regard for what is to come next" is an understatement- I sprinted. I considered myself both strong and brave enough to explore those worlds. I acknowledged early on that I wanted to know real answers about God and this existence, and I sought such with an infinite fervency and passion that would very easily be deemed foolish. I both accepted and allowed myself to experience and indulge in any "pleasures" I so desired. Now that's not to say I was a complete degenerate. I was honest with myself. I had so much love for life and for others, that in my deep inner self and soul it felt right to pursue my course, even against what could be seen by others as "sinful" or "wrong." My intentions, I knew, were pure in essence.

At 35, I rarely smoke weed anymore, which I thought that day would never come. It feels very natural for me, and I don't feel like I'm fighting the urge to want to smoke- if I did, or when I do, I smoke. I was a ski bum out west for some years and then lived in Hawaii for a while also- basically I was a full time adventurous hippy for my 20's. It's all been part of my journey, and during those years, marijuana was one of my main sidekicks. It helped me in a lot of ways, and was fun. It was a tool that helped me get to my "initiatory" experiences- paranormal, miraculous, etc. Through those experiences I was directly lead to the Law of One material. Before I found the Law of One, I was already aligned with it's message and information. My poetry and writings mirrored exactly what's relayed in the Law of One- "the One Infinity, The Infinity that's One, Love, The Creator, The Maker, The Being and Energy of Light and Love, etc." Ra says this though- "To attempt to reproduce an initiatory experience is to move, shall we say, backwards." For me, now, I've moved forward in my life and spiritual journey, and don't feel the need or desire to smoke weed habitually, and would feel if I were to, to be "backwards" for me.  

Smoking weed was right for me. That's your decision and choice now. It sounds like you've come to this already, but if you decide to do it, allow yourself some grace and humility and accept that it doesn't make you bad, evil, wrong, etc. If you feel guilt or shame, contemplate why. My advice, is just know that it's you, exploring you. Hope this help- Adonai!

Hey GlowingEyes,

Thank you much for sharing your experience!

I will remember your words of advice. Thank you.