02-18-2020, 11:37 PM
(02-17-2020, 06:45 AM)Reaper Wrote: Working with the Tree of Life has allowed me to greatly thin the veil over the past several years, resulting in dialogue with a variety of spiritual entities and the visitation of some members of my spiritual family during a period of extreme illness. The most valuable thing to come through this weakening veil, however, has been many lost aspects of my self- fragments of incarnations where deep wounds were acquired but not healed. One of these aspects, appearing to me in a vision/hallucination of sorts, was so utterly traumatized that I could have easily interpreted it as a negative greeting. In that medieval life I lived in a dank, underground chamber and was constantly exposed to toxins that eventually drove me mad, twisting my emotions and causing me to become extremely violent and perverse. Because I was in a position of political/religious power (there was little difference at the time) I was able to wreak a great deal of harm onto many individuals before my actions became so outrageous that the church more or less had me thrown into a hole in the ground, which I died in a short time later.
When that incarnation appeared before me his face was all malice and hatred. I could feel his feelings and see through his eyes, and he was seething with a lust for violence. He wanted to rip me apart, yet because I recognized him as myself he was unable to harm me in any way. I was able to feel compassion for this lost part of myself, an understanding and acceptance that was not present in that lifetime, and through this I was able to heal both his wounds and some of my own, embracing him back into my larger being where he could finally rest. I have realized there are quite a few other fragments of this nature that also need to be re-integrated, as well as thought forms created during lives of intense emotion that are still roaming the earth today and need to be put to rest. Doing this work actually brings me a great sense of fulfillment and joy.
Wow that’s pretty intense. I’ve experienced similar things but, not usually dark. Once I saw I was killed by a helicopter in a war. It was friendly fire at very close range. I was scared of helicopters my whole life. I got to see why in full HD. It was amazing and somewhat rattling. I suppose some need to integrate their past in some instances