Do artists serve themselves? Or others?

[sillypumpkins]

Hi all,

I read Book 1 about a year ago and am in the middle of Book 2. The past couple days I've been pondering my own polarity. I do very much feel neutral a lot of the time and I feel this gives way to some undesirable behavior. I want to serve others, but I also want to serve myself. I know it's harvest time, and it's time to make a choice (is that right?), so I'm trying to get all this sorted.

Anyways, I'm an artist. I really like making stuff, especially music. I've been thinking about whether the artist serves him/herself, or others. I suppose it depends on the artist? I'm really not sure. I've always struggled a little bit with sitting down and making stuff in a disciplined way. I usually have flurries of activity and then it dies down for a while and I get sedentary.

Anyways, I'd like to hear other's thoughts on this. I do feel more of an inclination towards service to others. It does feel like the path I'm walking on. I just..... want to be able to make my art too yknow.... it makes me happy...

This might seem like a silly question to some.... but I'm asking it anyway....

Thanks all