So much confusion, seeking clarity

[Kaaron]

Hello all, and Happy Holidays and New Year to all who reads this.

I've chosen to join this website and forum in hopes of seeking some clarity to the things that keep me up at night.
There was a brief period of time where I was suicidal and my children and grandchildren were the only thing that
kept me from ending it all. I felt that way because I truly am sickened and heart broken over the continued existence
of our 3D planet, the pain and suffering of many at times is too much for me to bear.
I'm confused and concerned it may not change anytime soon. So I'm going to post a few of my
most concerning issues and welcome anyone who reads it to offer their opinion, I truly pray some of you do. I've read Law of One
twice, still have no real understanding of whats to come or when.

1. I've read or heard on a Video (trying to remember who posted it) that the Solar Flash would happen in Spring of 2020. Has anyone else heard this?
a. If yes and we are not 51% STO in our vibration, does that mean we will die during the Solar Flash but continue to reincarnate on this 3D hell of a planet?

I've read and heard about it. Personally, I believe it is a real thing. When, is unimportant, to me. It could just be the moment of the tipping point, where the majority "get it". Like a rapture event.
Those who put in the work, live in euphoria.
Those who haven't, are forced to integrate the views which have kept them feeling separate.
I went through the experience of staring into the sun, being shown all the ways I was distorting my love. I balanced and became one.
This is what I feel the wave will do. Not a destruction...more of a return to what is.

3. Will there actually be Full Disclosure?

Perhaps...but feel it will be when we reach a level of understanding, as a collective,
that they are not here to appear in the sky, as the catalyst for it.
It will be more of a case of knowing who we are, in concert with them, that will allow them to freely walk among us. Like once we learn the ways of the federation...we get to join.

5. I use to follow and Believe much of the information put out by Corey Goode, David Wilcock and Emery Smith but my spidey sense is buzzing
that maybe their information isn't as authentic as I first believed. Are my senses on point regarding them?

This subject is a double edged sword, for me.
I believe David isn't aware of his selfish nature. He seems to want to be the one who brings the truth to the world. He is quite egotistical.
I don't get that vibe, from Corey.
I have stated on these forums, that I believe Carla and Jim were positive n Don was the negative balance necessary for the call of the information.
I see the same harmonics at play, with Corey and David.
Corey is quite lethargic and disconnected, at the beginning of the dialogue.
He was on meds at the beginning.
As he starts changing his diet and becoming more self aware, his appearance and way of communicating, improves.
David is always trying to ask when Disclosure will come.
Corey constantly refers to Ra telling him to look within and that they aren't here to save us.
I would watch it, with this in mind...if you choose to watch at all.