So much confusion, seeking clarity

[manifestgirl]

Hello all, and Happy Holidays and New Year to all who reads this.

I've chosen to join this website and forum in hopes of seeking some clarity to the things that keep me up at night.
There was a brief period of time where I was suicidal and my children and grandchildren were the only thing that
kept me from ending it all. I felt that way because I truly am sickened and heart broken over the continued existence
of our 3D planet, the pain and suffering of many at times is too much for me to bear.
I'm confused and concerned it may not change anytime soon. So I'm going to post a few of my
most concerning issues and welcome anyone who reads it to offer their opinion, I truly pray some of you do. I've read Law of One
twice, still have no real understanding of whats to come or when.

1. I've read or heard on a Video (trying to remember who posted it) that the Solar Flash would happen in Spring of 2020. Has anyone else heard this?
a. If yes and we are not 51% STO in our vibration, does that mean we will die during the Solar Flash but continue to reincarnate on this 3D hell of a planet?
2. I've read or heard that the Soul trap was dismantled... Everyone here most likely knows what I'm referring to by " Alien Soultrap" True or naw?
a. If it was dismantled does that imply we can now choose NOT to reincarnate back here even if we aren't prime for 4thD ascension?
3. Will there actually be Full Disclosure?
4. Will our cosmic cousins Not reveal themselves without it? (due to freewill of the majority etc)
5. I use to follow and Believe much of the information put out by Corey Goode, David Wilcock and Emery Smith but my spidey sense is buzzing
that maybe their information isn't as authentic as I first believed. Are my senses on point regarding them?
6. Is the Solar Flash a REAL Physical event all sentient beings will physically witness or is it only to be felt by those who are 51% STO and are ascending?

Thank you in advance to anyone reading this and willing to take of their time to aid me in expanding my perspective along my journey to ascension.

Peace and Richest Blessing to you all