Has Anyone Here Opened up to Intelligent Infinity?

[AnthroHeart]

I had a Kundalini Awakening about 2-3 months ago, after 10-15 years of inconsistent meditation.
I recently have been able to feel energies like what weed or MDMA feels like without actually taking them.

I asked to feel anthro substances. I found that their "drugs" are not used to get high,
but more to release worries, or feel more earthy. I found a third I call "Becoming"
because it helps me become what I desire to be, in that case anthro. Maybe not a physical one,
but energetically and emotionally one.

At least this was the path I took. I have spent the time since my awakening raising the subdensity of my
mind and body and moving closer to the Central Sun.

It's gotten to where I feel a constant stream into my crown. It's very pleasant. About 5-6/10 euphoria
and it's fairly dense. Feels like a warm garden hose pressed against my head. It is building slowly.

If this is Intelligent Infinity, it produces a mild joy in me. But it's not like what Ra said:

80.22 The contact with intelligent infinity is most likely to produce an unspeakable joy in the entity experiencing such contact.

It feels infinite though like it never runs out. But not infinite in pleasure.

I'd say the joy is about 6/10. The bliss is about 6/10.

I do feel complete and whole. But I'm still working on myself and my frustrations.

Would this be contact with intelligent infinity? And if not, what could it be?

Anyone else here have experience opening the gateway?
It doesn't start out infinitely joyful, but it does get better by the minute.

I don't know, but I feel "complete" sort of. Like my work on myself is done, energetically-wise.
Like I don't have to make shifts now. The instreaming Light is doing everything.
It fills me. And is oh so captivating. I don't really feel the need to meditate now.
Just enjoying the fruits of my hard work. But I probably won't rest on my laurels.