12-10-2019, 01:30 PM
Ra finally helped me see how my giving of myself, often to the point of physical, financial or emotional devastation, was not being charitable, holy or even serving the others.
When I realized that my scheming and manipulating my husband to keep him from drinking was NOT serving his highest good, nor my family's, in spite of every human material American thought to the contrary, was the moment I realized I had been living this life ALL wrong.
Funny enough, that was also when my luck changed and I began seeing manifestations in my world.
I like to think of STO/STS as interacting with the incarnated world in one of two ways, 1-STO - Control and improvement of self/connection to Infinite Divinity with the focus on not harming other humans while giving excess to better others, or 2-STS - Control and manipulation of others with the focus on not allowing harm to self while taking anything that will allow the being to continue his protection of self first.
I am finding that the more I focus on the highest good, instead of specific me focused good, the easier it all becomes, the easier it is to fail and try again.
Refining all these distortions is hard work.
When I realized that my scheming and manipulating my husband to keep him from drinking was NOT serving his highest good, nor my family's, in spite of every human material American thought to the contrary, was the moment I realized I had been living this life ALL wrong.
Funny enough, that was also when my luck changed and I began seeing manifestations in my world.
I like to think of STO/STS as interacting with the incarnated world in one of two ways, 1-STO - Control and improvement of self/connection to Infinite Divinity with the focus on not harming other humans while giving excess to better others, or 2-STS - Control and manipulation of others with the focus on not allowing harm to self while taking anything that will allow the being to continue his protection of self first.
I am finding that the more I focus on the highest good, instead of specific me focused good, the easier it all becomes, the easier it is to fail and try again.
Refining all these distortions is hard work.
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