Empathy

[Diana]

Self censor is really limiting for artists, writers, etc. and is a reason why great works of art were usually made for the self and not necessarily to be released for public. my favorite musician got in trouble because of others blowing things out of proportion when he made a mistake, u know..

I think that's very true for artists (by that I mean all creatives), but artists also tend to be unstable. I think the instability comes from the right-brain/creative open channels, and the fact that people are not taught how to function with the creative energies which are not linear, not logical, and therefore can't be controlled by society. If you look at the school systems (at least in the US), teaching is almost exclusively left-brain memorization and linear sequencing, and creativity is ignored, attempting to pump out good little societally acceptable robots by squeezing everyone into a controllable box.

Artists have a hard time in modern-day society. If I were a conspiracy theorist, I could make a case for the control of creative people who are less apt to conform with the system, by outlining how their survival power has been diminished (after they leave school and try to make it in the world). The biggest problem I see for creative people is that they HAVE to create, so they end up lost in a world that doesn't value them.

But on the bright side, because they HAVE to create, they still do. And they add light to the world, whether it's the light of truth, love, or whatever.

When I'm comfortable and completely myself I may not be very emotional but I'm soft
This attracts people who want to take advantage by taking and not giving and mocking us for it.

also being different and solitary means there will always be people who want to pick on you, dominate you, they think they will
Fix the self worth issues I mentioned by doing something to prove they're superior. or usually their ''side'' has to be superior (''u're one of us or agaisnt us'' mentality)

So many times when there's supposed to be a line or sth, someone decides to take my place and totally disregard me
It's like they know I don't like defending myself. (it doesn't feel very noble)

So a little help from the shadow side (the part that is done with all that and has a claim to healing) can help.

It can change my voice (not in a villianish way, lol) make me serious, ... to help in a situation when I allow it. if it helps the highest good

My shadow side can defend me or other things through other means. but usually I handle things with the light side,

Okay I get it. Yes, it sounds like balancing and integrating the whole self.

Recently I handled two ppl that were trying to dominate me with calm and understanding but my subconscious caused me to burst laughing
after I did that (which I stopped after a seocond). I believe it was a little kick that was needed. the loud laughter came a second after I thanked them (lol) and it displayed some sort of hidden power.

That's awesome. I have had the same thing happen to me at the strangest moments. For me, I think it was a recognition of the absurdity of the human drama bubbling up.

I have to admit it's still not very pleasant having to stand up for myself. standing up for others comes easier. even though I let
others usually work things out themselves and still feel like a guest on planet earth. But I will have to do it when it's responsiblity and not infringement on the will of the creator

If you ask a writer about writing, they will go on and on about how much they love it; but if you ask them to write a bio, they will tell you they hate that. I think it's because it's like playing the Earth game, having to market one's self. But it is a reflection of self-respect and self-worth.

You know when traveling on a commercial plane, the flight attendant tells parents to use the oxygen mask first for themselves, then the child? It is my opinion that the best way to help the world is to become the best you. It isn't simple because we are always interacting with others. But you are as important as everyone(thing) else.