What if I am further down on the STS-path?/need help

[Moonfox]

First off, anyone telling you that you don't have a choice is lying to you. For their own purposes, perhaps, but it's a lie all the same. Secondly, if you need help, please seek it. I personally am on medication for mental illness and recommend therapy. There is no shame to it. I'm also a product of childhood abuse and neglect. I survived and while I have elements of negativity embedded in my personality, I work around them. My choice is to be positive. It can be yours, too.

Seek the one creator. Live as a child of light. Seek to change your own perspective.