Great Way of the Spirit

[Highrculling]

Wow. Nice.
For most of my life I strived to be more of a man , then most men, in my professional life.
And it worked, right up until my overwork, anxiety and conscious, caught up to me.
My intuition was cut off (an amusing sidestory), I operated nearly completely from the rational, logical, masculine part of me.
I hated being a girl, and even before connecting to these concepts I shunned intuition and feelings.
What a rollercoaster of highs, lows,sickness and terror.
Even though I saw and spoke with spirits as a child, I had so locked this away I could not access, nor find, my intuition.
The road back required vigilant mapping of feelings in my body and the surrounding happenings.
Clearing a ton of chemicals from my body and life, meditation and eventually stumbling upon dowsing/divining changed everything.
Strengthening, exercising my intuition and divining skills have served this path so well.
I now hear my guides again, and even have new ones, as well as the occasional pop in deceased, and it all started with radical gratitude and swinging a pendulum.
Amazing trip

Well in my case, I never got to explore the Intellect very much, even if I wanted to. My intellect is kind of slow/clumsy, somewhere around the medium point among the population. Nothing much I can do about that. My intuition has been kind of sharp. And I intuitively knew how not smart I am. LOL. I was quite frustrated over this for some time(for being intellectually lame), but later I got over it(still salty tho hehehe).
So you can see I didn't have much of a choice in the matter. I had to adjust to the slowness/clumsiness of my intellect(with all its implications), and basically Love that. And seek ways to utilize my handy intuition.
I feel like my intellect/intuition ratio has turned my into a walking potentiator of some sort. I really think I could work very well with smart people, in a mutually strengthening way.
Although in real life, the majority of smart people prefer to press their apparent advantage, so as to be more exclusive/distinguished. But I am hopeful.
Sounds like you had quite a ride finding the way back, you definitely went pretty far. It's good to know you are more balanced now. Thumb up to that.
I don't usually receive communication in terms hearing(I hope the deceased managed not to be spooky), don't use much pendulum neither. For me it's typically Q&A by way of inspiration. I might try out the pendulum in the future.