01-09-2011, 02:20 PM
Wow, this situation of taking something beautiful for myself and killing it with selfishness is a recurring pattern that I've been experiencing for quite sometime now. It's filtered through all layers down to almost the most obvious physical. It first started with thoughts that I would have in dreams or meditations showing the taking of something beautiful only to have it wilt or die in my hands a second later. When I was unable to relate that to my conscious life situation, it moved on to the point where situations such as time spent with friends no longer was fun because of selfish/controlling impulses that I was/am having trouble balancing. Finally and most recently, the scenario acted itself out completely and tragically in the physical when the beautiful new car I just bought for myself last Tuesday was t-boned three days later on Friday. That was kind of a smashing (and crashing and scratching) exclamation point added to this message from my higher self. :p When I already had everything I could possibly ask for, I still reached out and selfishly took something for myself. I should instead be thankful for what I have and appreciate and focus on the opportunities to do work in consciousness. The beauty I took for myself withered (literally crumpled) in my hands.
Anyways, I can't thank you enough for bringing this up and focusing on this session. I think the quiet observation of the dance of love and wisdom within the self will help to bring clarity to this situation. Once one is aware of the energies of both, it's the guidance of the higher self that will let you know which one to place your attention on in which situations.
Anyways, I can't thank you enough for bringing this up and focusing on this session. I think the quiet observation of the dance of love and wisdom within the self will help to bring clarity to this situation. Once one is aware of the energies of both, it's the guidance of the higher self that will let you know which one to place your attention on in which situations.