Awakenings

[Phoenix]

Hello I am new to this forum, and glad that I have somewhere to tell my story.
It all started in 1994 when I put together a pattern of bacterial throat infections that I had working in a power plant, this was from flue gas a byproduct of combustion.
It started an awakening that is still unfolding as we speak.
One morning as I was leaving for work I noticed flashing lights in the sky, they flashed red white green. I thought to myself that this was strange as they were stationary, I let it go.
Then a few months later I say a UFO, it was a silver disc. I just realized that I saw what many have saw and let it go.
Within a few days of this sighting I had a vision, where the same silver discs flying in V formation flew over my head, and flashed red, white and green. There were two formations and the second one dropped a baby bottle full of milk.
This was the start of a journey that I still have to pinch myself to see that it is real. I had many spiritual visions going on at this time also, visions of being in space.
Thankfully I came across the Ra material and it helped me make sense of what I was going through, this past illness was a catalyst for me.
I am not sure if you could consider me a wanderer although I feel like that now, I had experienced a soul transfer, I felt my birth soul leave and a new soul literally walk-in. I believe that Ra does address the walk-in experience it has been a few years since I read the material.
But now I feel lost I am not sure what I am to do or where I am supposed to be, I am just carrying on with life.
I find that I have been drawn to native american teachings, and try to spend time in nature, where I feel supported and loved. I also experience communication with this environment.
Perhaps I am right where I should be, I am learning alot about nature spirituality.

Well, even though it was a short while ago, Welcome to the forum, it's always nice to hear another wanderer's story.

In regards to the ear tones:

Session 49:

Ra: I am Ra. The lobes of your physical complex brain are alike in their use of weak electrical energy. The entity ruled by intuition and impulse is equal to the entity governed by rational analysis when polarity is considered. The lobes may both be used for service to self or service-to-others. It may seem that the rational or analytical mind might have more of a possibility of successfully pursuing the negative orientation due to the fact that in our understanding too much order is by its essence negative. However, this same ability to structure abstract concepts and to analyze experiential data may be the key to rapid positive polarization. It may be said that those whose analytical capacities are predominant have somewhat more to work with in polarizing.

The function of intuition is to inform intelligence. In your illusion the unbridled predominance of intuition will tend to keep an entity from the greater polarizations due to the vagaries of intuitive perception. As you may see, these two types of brain structure need to be balanced in order that the net sum of experiential catalyst will be polarization and illumination, for without the acceptance by the rational mind of the worth of the intuitive faculty the creative aspects which aid in illumination will be stifled.

There is one correspondence between right and left and positive and negative. The web of energy which surrounds your bodies contains somewhat complex polarizations. The left area of the head and upper shoulder is most generally seen to be of a negative polarization whereas the right is of positive polarization, magnetically speaking. This is the cause of the tone’s meaning for you.