Few are ready for 4th density

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I have come to terms with the fact that my goals aren't really graduation. Agua once told me my concern with graduation was really just me not wanting to be here in 3D anymore and wanting to escape. The truth of that stuck with me and I have since come to realize I have a lot more Earthly goals to accomplish before I work on graduating. Right now, I realize I need to let go of my need for external validation/approval to be the man I want to be. This is a necessary step for graduation, but graduation is not my goal for doing so. I'm slowly getting more comfortable with the thought of possibly repeating 3rd density on some other planet or something and I'm just trying to make the best life I can for myself with this life on this planet. Who knows? Maybe I'll eventually get to a point of being harvestable, but it's not my goal. I may or may not be a wanderer, and I may or may not end up harvestable after all is said and done, but I've learned to just stop being concerned with it and focus on the lesson I'm needing to learn, which is not needing external validation. I'm just going to try and focus on the improvement of myself and my life and if that ends up taking me to a point of harvestability, great. If not, I'll still have lived a life that satisfied me. Or at least that's my goal.

I find the less I worry about all that stuff in the future, I can concentrate more on being present with whatever is in front of me in the now. I think if you honestly look at yourself you've come quite a ways in your spiritual growth! Really what's the hurry anyhow.