Few are ready for 4th density

[kristina]

Ra also mentioned the “orange-ray drop down.” Which is a lower grade of consciousness, self-centered and emotionally ruled. Akin to an animal. They’re expressing themselves in base terms. I think we can see this all over the world around us... if not the orange ray, then people are blocked in the yellow ray, which is an over focus on the societal self. I see this far too often, that people consider “my side” to be all knowing and right, and the “other side” to be wrong. The sense of separation is more and more cemented with that kind of thinking.

I tend to be emotionally driven, and come from orange-ray. I don't really even consider getting out and about with society.
I feel I may be blocked in orange ray, because I do have sexual distortions as well.
I'm not always loving and coming from green ray. It is hit or miss.

Not sure if this is something that meditation can help. But I can try.

Gem, I think just "knowing" that you have these areas that may be blocked is more than half the battle especially when we sit that beside the attitude of 3rd density. Most of which have no idea they even have blockages or even energy centers. I'm with Nau7ik that you have a jump on this.
In my opinion, if a person is aware or they know, there is something that can be worked with, right? And Nau7ik also said to know thyself. This is wonderful advice and most important in our spiritual evolution. As it is not easy with the veil intact. To me, sounds like you're heading in the right direction.  And it sounds like to me that you've done much work already. I'm with Flo and I think Infinite you worry too much and worry is not a good motivator. It can suck the life energy from you leaving you tired. Seems like there is balancing taking place already. Best wishes to you