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[EvolvingPhoenix]

I completely understand your feelings. 

One way to handle these feelings for me is to imagine the moments after death. Imagine you stuck it out, your whole life, with all the pain and tribulations and human injustice—all the drama, which when here can cause so much suffering. You stuck the whole thing out, and now you have passed on. And there you are, saying something like, "Freaking awesome! I did it! I didn't give up. I did what I went to do (doesn't matter what that is) and I didn't give up."

I imagine what I would feel like if I'd given up because it can be so very hard here. And this gives me the motivation to go on, to be productive in some way.

I have no idea what I came here to do. I doubt I'm doing it.