04-16-2019, 01:52 AM
(04-15-2019, 10:12 PM)Stranger Wrote: Cainite, thank you. Your thread has helped me reach a new level in this game we call illusion.
Briefly, this thread helped me to realize that right here, right now, we are also the Creator, and I chose to look out through that lens instead of the little-me personality lens at a Catholic mass I attended. It's a little like the different lenses optometrists click into place during an eye exam. I knew that at the same time as I was me, I was also the Creator pretending not to be the Creator, and switched into that, simply by knowing (through faith) that it was possible and therefore choosing it.
As I shifted into the Creator-within-me, I noticed that this version of me was resting in a state of profound calm: unhurried, undisturbed, peaceful.
And I remained veiled of course, but my attitude suddenly changed. I started checking with myself how I felt about things, and discovered a radical shift. For instance, I checked, how do I feel about an issue I'd been frustrated and fighting through for years now? And discovered that I now felt, 100%, "that is how it needs to be." That was shocking. I triple-checked and yep, that's how I now felt about something that had felt like a lodestone around my neck for years.
I checked my-as-Creator attitude toward the world, and noticed it was a deeply sincere, tender caring for all and every part of it, but surprisingly without any hint of feeling that anything was wrong or needed to be "fixed." That was surprising. I noticed that as soon as I would try to think about using this state to "fix" something, I would immediately begin shifting out of Creator-consciousness into something much smaller and less whole/healthy.
I got curious about the people around me - and suddenly it felt like I somehow turned 180 degrees inside, so that instead of seeing people outside myself I was now facing the entire Universe inside myself, symbolized as a kind of living, pulsating fruit, with the people and everything else being in it. I and it were one system with something like electricity flowing from me into the "fruit" and back again with no discontinuity. In this inner Universe, everything was simple, unadorned - just points of Creator's consciousness contributing to the dream. It felt like a behind-the-stage look at a theater, where everything is simple and functional, meanwhile on stage it's all dazzle and opulence. It was a peaceful reality, and I felt so much tenderness toward it, a wanting to nurture it.
During all of this something shifted from my heart chakra up to the throat, which quickly cleared. It's hard to explain but I felt that I had somehow shifted up from the heart to the throat, that this was the place from which I was now experiencing life. (an inner voice said, you've taken the next step). I was also sweating, and my third eye was going absolutely nuts with intense sensation for about an hour while, with my eyes closed, I also repeatedly saw a vivid circle of purple light in the middle of my forehead. My consciousness felt like the soothing mental fuzziness of a hypnotic trance. At the conclusion of this, an inner voice said, "today has been like Christmas for your soul."
Since then I've found myself with this calm, serene state as my baseline. It has been a strange contradiction where, when emotions do come, I feel them more sharply and vividly (which isn't great), but I also take them less seriously, don't buy into them as much, and therefore seem to be able to easily step out of an emotion-state just by choosing to do so. It's like I'm not that upset or concerned about anything, it's all fine, no big deal, although I can allow myself to get anxious if I choose to. There's a pleasant warmth of love naturally present in my heart and throat. I don't seem to get upset or irritable as much, and when I do it's an easy choice to move away from that - like, "nah, why would I want to go to that not-fun place?"
Why am I posting this? Because we're all seekers here, and I've found it super helpful to learn that we have many available perspectives or personas through which we can experience reality. The default, human-me is just one of them, and we can shift into others. I decided to put my faith in the fact that I am also the Creator who is all-that-is into action, right here and right now - the whole and perfect Creator-me, even though that whole-and-perfect me is still hard at work at the task of tweaking the human-persona it's carrying around into a more harmonious configuration.
This seems to have paid off.
Thank you for the catalyst, Cainite!
You're welcome!
The real purpose of the seeking and sharing here is to go through these transformations.
Tell us when you became enlightened
