A Spiritual Trap: Self Delusion

[Diana]

Nice to hear from you, and great insights, Namaste.

2) You probably don't love unconditionally.

I certainly agree. Unconditional love is one of the most misunderstood states as per my experience and observations, and there is a lot of confusion pertaining to it.

. A quick example: my friend and I were travelling in Myanmar, and the room we had was full of mosquitoes. We spent hours trying to get them all outside without harming them to no avail. Since I didn't want to be food for countless blood suckers for an entire night and be up all night itching the rest of the holiday I decided to swat them. I realised then that I didn't genuinely love all beings equally, although I had been telling myself I did. I still do not pretend to think that to this day either either. I have biases, and I'm guessing you do to.

The real eye opener however was that of my friend. He refused to participate in swatting them because he "loved all beings equally", but he didn't not try to stop me. When I asked why, he replied "That's your decision, your karma". That was truth, of course, which I accepted before doing so. I posited a question:

"If someone was about to harm your niece, would you try to protect her?"

He went silent—because he would do so in a heartbeat—and to his credit, he realised he'd been fooling himself. He loved his niece more than the mosquitoes. While that's an extreme example, if your best friend became homeless and you saw them begging on the street, would you walk past them or would you invite them to your home and help them get back on their feet? Would you treat a complete stranger the same way?

Unconditional love is not a mantra. It's action. Our willingness to act is the determining factor, nothing else.

That is a very good example. I will take these examples a step further and say that taking action can be done without drama. What I mean by that is the self need not get too wrapped up in outcomes (I know I harp on this idea but I think it's integral to understanding unconditional love). Unconditional love involves acceptance—but by that I do not mean letting everything be because it's all perfect. As Ra said, if you come across a starving person, the proper response is to feed that entity (paraphrased). 

Personally I would not kill the mosquitos, and instead of letting my friend kill them, I would be proactive and see if the hotel had mosquito nets, or if a local market did. I probably would have brought essential oils or a natural insect repellent (I did this when visiting Costa Rica). On the other hand, I almost got myself killed while staying at an outpost 4 hours into the jungle on the river (in that same trip to Costa Rica), by freeing some captive animals in cages (toucans, monkeys, and more, all screaming or trying to free themselves) on the dock in the middle of the night. My boyfriend talked me out of it, adding that I would be putting everyone on the tour in danger, not just myself. I ended up spending time around the cages and trying to pour love out to those poor animals. There was a sweet tapir who came up to me and snuffled my hand. That whole scene still makes me cry.

I have removed spiders, lizards, cockroaches, and all manner of what others call "pests" from client's meeting rooms, friends and family's homes, stores. If I were attached to the outcome, I would be an activist. I would lecture the people who marvel at me taking a cockroach outside before it gets stepped on by someone shrieking eeeeyoooo. I just help the cockroach because that's all I care about in the moment (a caveat is that ultimately I care about humanity evolving to the point that all life is honored, but I have no control over that). On the other hand, when it came to those caged animals in Costa Rica, I was emotionally attached, but I didn't go so far as to try and convince anyone of my perspective. However, I definitely would have stepped in if I'd seen anyone try to hurt or kill the animals. And yet—they were being hurt. So . . . there are many layers of action and consequences and dynamics to sort out regarding this subject.

But "willingness to act" really derives from who we are at any given time. And I think that is the source of "all is well as it is." It doesn't mean all is well, with so much suffering here (in my—subject to change—opinion), it means who or what any being is at any given time is okay.

One other small example: awarding 'likes' on this very forum. If we loved unconditionally we would unconsciously 'like' every single post on this forum, as we would see them all as equally beautiful views of Oneness. But, we don't, we like the ones that resonate. Again, there's nothing wrong with that at all, just something to be aware of.

While we are evolving as individual expressions, and dynamically interacting with the cosmic soup of existence, there is this from Ra:

Ra: I am Ra. . . . You may, at this time, note that as with any entities, each Wanderer has its unique abilities, biases, and specialties so that from each portion of each density represented among the Wanderers comes an array of pre-incarnative talents which then may be expressed upon this plane which you now experience so that each Wanderer, in offering itself before incarnation, has some special service to offer in addition to the doubling effect of planetary love and light and the basic function of serving as beacon or shepherd.

Thus there are those of fifth density whose abilities to express wisdom are great. There are fourth- and sixth-density Wanderers whose ability to serve as, shall we say, passive radiators or broadcasters of love and love/light are immense. There are many others whose talents brought into this density are quite varied.

Though wanderers here may already be functioning as a beacon of planetary love and light, those of Ra also point out the importance of individual expression.

3) You are human. You come from earth. I've been through the 'where do I really come from' stage too (Sirius was always the answer For what it's worth). While that's all well and good, we must not let that detract us from here and now. Right now, in this human body, with human needs and wants. That's third density, and that's where the power is. The power to choose. Don't trick yourself into thinking you've already chosen, and that being a Wanderer means that this isn't real for you. It is, otherwise you wouldn't be having this experience. You're here for a reason! Which is love, of course.

I so agree.

4) PLAY. Express yourself creatively and follow your passions. There's a reason you're drawn to something; your higher self. Excitement is your compass. Don't ignore that excitement if it's not a 'spiritual' practice. It could be singing, reading, drawing or playing an instrument. Whatever it is, diving into that will be spiritually rewarding to you and all those who encounter you. 

I used to divide photography and healing, thinking the latter was the spiritual path and the former was the passion. In fact I was thinking that 10 years ago when joining this forum. How wrong was I? The joy I've experienced—and created/shared/given—through photography far exceeds that of hands on healing. In fact it was photography that gave me a worldwide stage in which to speak, and on that stage I promote understanding the mechanics of fear and embracing the creative mindset. For a while I thought I was 'off target / failing spiritually', as I was into photography way more than healing. I wasn't, I was in the perfect place at the perfect time, I just couldn't see it due to incorrect assumptions and expectations (and not trusting my excitement fully).

Stop telling yourself what the best direction is, and listen. 51% STO and you're helping humanity. Anything else is a bonus. When you're excited you're naturally happy. A better person. More loving. Relax and enjoy yourself!

I so agree with this as well, and thank you this beautiful reminder. It's easy to get caught up in "shoulds" and analyses outside of self. Referencing the above quote from Ra, we are all unique beings, and that is what we may tap into for full expression of what we have to offer this existence.