love/unity experience increases difficulty with fear/seperation

[loostudent]

Hey Glow!

Maybe this stumblings are educational. They can teach us humility and cure us of vanity.

I wasn’t really vain so no need there. As to humility I am struggling because I never wanted to be a burden. I have always struggled to carry my own weight, that seems near impossible right now so I am learning to accept depending on others without to much guilt.
I honestly feel horrible because I know life is hard for everyone, so burdening others hurts.

If that is included in humility I guess it is working though I have always sided on the low self importance or value as a human so not sure further humility is necessary. You could be right though.

I meant humility as a realistic view of self. When we experience a time of bliss we can feel all loving, transformed, spiritualy higher evolved, ready to change the world ... That can be some kind of pride (unrealistic view of self). Others are mirrors. Especially in difficult situations. When we react negatively, they remind us that we still need a lot of work, help, forgiveness and acception of our imperfect and vulnerable side. That's why monks teach us watchfulness and prayer also in the time when we stand.