love/unity experience increases difficulty with fear/seperation

[RitaJC]

As time goes on I understand the meditating monks retreating to the mountain.
Once in a state of unity consciousness, out of ego just feeling love overwhelming for everyone/everything it can be a shock to come back in to consensus reality/separation consciousness. I am wondering how you all handle the inevitable shifts in consciousness

I am being granted moments and sometimes days of unity consciousness, however when I hit that bit of catylist that makes me decent into separation consciousness it gives me enough difficulty I end up lower vibration than I had been, maybe ever in this life before. Kind of like being re-birthed from connection with all and blissful love in the moment stream to plummeting back behind the veil and feeling it all new, all over.

This time again it took a blow to the head. I had been grounding my light quite well in the day to day of life and then in an instant I was significantly hurt, and worse still dropped into a state of fear and separation that hasn't fully left my side since.

It has been a few months. I am climbing my way out but I am finding when I am blessed to again hit that state of in-love with all things, oneness, near bliss, I cannot sustain it, smaller catalyst pull me out of that state and into fear/separation it feels SO MUCH WORSE.

As a result the climb back up isn't going as it once did. Instead of a steady climb with small stumbles it feels like I tumble lower after each time I gain a few steps of progress back to where I was.

Due to the concussion again my language is impacted.
If that was hard to follow my short version of the question is.

When you have had those moments or days, or weeks of feeling "in love" with all creation, how have you softened the impact on your vibration when those times have ended. How do you keep balance when you have had your highest highs, to not have it lead to lowest lows when as happens, footing is lost.

Thank you for any tips. I know I do my best for everyone around me when I can stay in love state, myself included.
I do no one any good from fear/separation state so it is important I relearn to regain this ability to stumble without going crashing off the mountain.  

Be well all

I hear you loud and clear. And I remember how devastated I was when I was having similar experience.

Now, I am with krb, Rupert Spira and other non-duality teachers about this.