Orange and yellow chakra development part 2

[Cainite]

I used to develop my art skills and contemplation but since I have a family and a job I can't make this useful anymore. I just can't fulfill my creative inspirations. I feel like my personality can't shine in this society. Is this a conflict between orange and yellow? A conflict betwen myself as an individual and as a part of society. I guess I'm having difficulty connecting orange to yellow.

Sometimes when entities gain access to green ray, and higher rays after that before fully balancing yellow/orange ray this happens.

One may be afraid to be free or show this freedom through yellow ray, since those who aren't free yet see it as black and evil. (According to Ra I think)

so a free being usually has trouble with yellow ray. to give you an example would be aragorn from lord of the rings books, his difficulty to accept comming out of the shadows and become king.. was due to his denial of yellow ray power.

That's how I see it for now.