Orange and yellow chakra development part 2

[flofrog]

I used to develop my art skills and contemplation but since I have a family and a job I can't make this useful anymore. I just can't fulfill my creative inspirations. I feel like my personality can't shine in this society. Is this a conflict between orange and yellow? A conflict betwen myself as an individual and as a part of society. I guess I'm having difficulty connecting orange to yellow.

loostudent,  would you have time to take an evening of meditation really like 'scanning'  yourself carefully ?   The feeling that you can't shine in society is perhaps just how you perceive yourself at a moment where you might be tired [ family and a job do that to you ] and then it may come as exhausting to simply 'be' social.

I am just saying that because when I was a child and a teen and like a young twenty yrs I was tongue tied so often, and so shy and feeling that being in society was so difficult.. everyone was wittier, everyone was more charming, everyone had interesting things to say and I didn't and I would find myself gross and obnoxious. I would plod on though. Then one day I met by chance a girl who had been in school with me in my class,  we were in a school that covered all elementary, middle and high school, so we got to know all of us well.  And we started to chat and I talked openly of all of my weaknesses and she said, omg flo we all thought you were shy, and lonely but so cute, and so funny, we all liked you enormously but just thought you wanted to be left alone.

It  was  like looking back at numerous years of your life and thinking  OMG I missed all that !!!  lol

So it's just a thought you might be thinking about...    you might shine way more than you think lol