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I will share those two stories when I have had a bit more time to remember the transition of before event and the changes that followed but since that was 25 years ago it may take a few days.
Cainite - It isn’t just you. Awakening isn’t a light switch that stays on fully lit.
For most if not all it is moments of illumination that make us unable to fully go back to the unconscious way if living. After that it is just a process.
Sleep vs Awake Id say most are in the groggy bits of awakening where it is mostly uncomfortable.
I know I get lots of moments even hours of beautiful love/unity where I feel really free.
Those if anything make the other moments of falling back into regular collective separation consciousness even less comfortable. So I’m still in the groggy half awake struggle too.
Talk later all. Be well.
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I will share those two stories when I have had a bit more time to remember the transition of before event and the changes that followed but since that was 25 years ago it may take a few days.

Cainite - It isn’t just you. Awakening isn’t a light switch that stays on fully lit.
For most if not all it is moments of illumination that make us unable to fully go back to the unconscious way if living. After that it is just a process.
Sleep vs Awake Id say most are in the groggy bits of awakening where it is mostly uncomfortable.
I know I get lots of moments even hours of beautiful love/unity where I feel really free.
Those if anything make the other moments of falling back into regular collective separation consciousness even less comfortable. So I’m still in the groggy half awake struggle too.
Talk later all. Be well.
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