Deciding to connect with my higher self

[Tae]

And I've been suffering with a sense of worthlessness. That's what my mind has been on lately. Feeling worthless and like a loser. I need some way out, and so far, I've determined that developing a connection with my higher self and doing my best to embody it is the only real way out. Problem is, how do I tell when it's really what my higher self wants and not the ego? The ego is tricky after all. I guess only by developing a good connection will I know.

It is not your mind that is worthless and like a loser, it is only what your mind is receiving. You also won't find "a way out" through mindfulness–it will be a way in.

The trick to breaking down an enormous task is to find the tiny things you can do to climb the stairs to get there.

So, you want to connect to your Higher Self, to get there you need to be able to tell the difference between the thoughts that come from you and the thoughts that come from anything else. To do this, you need to develop "mindfulness" which is a frustrating shorthand if you haven't got it for what really seems to mean "challenging whatever you receive."

So you think "I'm a worthless loser." Let me break it down.

"I am" is extremely powerful–you are giving yourself the identity with those words. Language used both within and without has immense power to influence us and our surroundings. Instead of going into it with the words "I am", explore it with temporary and detached language, "Right now, I experience the feeling of being worthless." It is only an experience and it is not permanent. Don't make it so.

"Worthless" Worth less than what? Surely you have some value in some arenas and less in others, like all people. So trace it back to the specific thing making you feel that way. You feel worthless because you burnt your sandwich? "I would like to learn to be a better cook." Taking the feeling and identifying where it comes from, gives you the opportunity to replace it with something you can take action against.

When I have a thought like, "I'm a loser" I ask myself, so where did this thought come from? Before I was closely acquainted with my Higher Self the only way I could identify if a thought was from my ego, or from my Higher Self, or from an implant of some sort not originating from me at all was to slow down and run each thought through a matrix to determine its intent.

Try replacing "I can never do enough to matter" with "I am exactly where I need to be to make what differences I can." Or something like that. You're not out of time. You're not out of chances. Small ripples and radiation of love are meaningful even if not in human terminology. You can ALWAYS become a better person, and it's okay if that takes time. You're in the right heartspace.