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[Arian]

Hello,

My name is Arian. I'm a wanderer. I was born on this planet in 1967. I'm 51 years old.
Life on this planet has been painful. I never married nor had children.
I gone through a lot. I have read many subjects and schools of thought.


One day in summer of 2016 I was meditating under an oak grove. When I felt another world a world for beauty and peace. I know it exists but we have missed it.
I have such a longing for this place and home that I have remembered form early childhood.

This world is harsh cruel and unjust. Violent. The people in this world I find apathetic and narcissistic.

I have studied The Law of One, the books by Osho, Scot Mandelker, David Icke, Jordan Maxwell, Michael Tsarion and many more.

Then I learned of the Gnostic Archons. They teach this universe is simulation like a computer program a Matrix.

Then I think are we here to learn evolve and grow? Or are we prisoners here?

I do not know. I have missed something and sometimes I feel as though my life is a complete waste.
I slave away at my 9 to 5. I take care of my elderly mother.

I find this world and society unfit for life. Violent weather and dangerous life forms not to mention corrupt humans.

I'm sorry, this tired Wander and old soul had to vent.

Thank you.

Arian


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Hermann Hesse - Somewhere

I'm wandering and burning in the desert of human life,
and I'm suffering under this heavy burden.
But somewhere, there is an almost forgotten flower,
I know that there is a garden somewhere under cool shadows.

although it is so far away, like a dream...
I know that this resting place is waiting for me for sure.
Our spirit is holding the place of our birth again,
where slumber, night and stars are waiting for me.