02-22-2019, 03:06 PM
(02-22-2019, 02:24 PM)xise Wrote: It is interesting how much one changes upon this journey. Just half a year ago, I wasn't much interested in the gateway or working with indigo or violet rays but that changed. After much personal work for the past 7 years involving healing the lower rays, and specific choices to seek further and better understand the concept of faith, it all culminated at the last homecoming and the faith strengthened to a point where I deepened my daily practice (special thanks to Bring4th_Jade and Bring4th_Plenum for being a part of the events that led to my faith). Then, 3 months ago, I for a moment experienced feeling that I and all was the Creator. I also experienced what I consider a magical working as well just last month (that I will likely share in the future).
Now more than ever, I thirst for the Creator, to touch and embrace the infinity that we are. I can safely save that while the spiritual journey was a foremost priority in my life for last 7 years it was more from the perspective of healing and just becoming more loving; since the strengthening of my faith for the last 6 months I've felt my sole life goal is full union with the Creator - in this life. Even if I cannot achieve it, I know the journey itself will be worthwhile, but I have a strange memory as if I've already previously achieved it in past lifes? I don't know. I just feel like the edges of the memory of full union with the Creator is in my awareness somewhere, I can't really explain it. And who knows, perhaps my life goal will change. I don't really feel like I know anything other than the present moment in some ways.
At any rate, thank you Infinite for making this post. I am rereading the discussion with much eagerness and excitement.
Love, xise
I'm happy in serve you my brother.