Is Harvestability Just a Guess

[Tae]

Yes I know that I'm not hear just to escape.
I have to keep reminding myself
and I don't know why I keep bringing up harvestability.
As if I don't trust what is.
[...]
I kept trying to read my density, and kept getting 3D in the cards.

So if we don't go home even though we are a wanderer, that's some commitment.
It's like we willingly became 3D and started over. Another billion years back to 6D.

I try to meditate on "I am". I believe my divinity to be true. I just wish I could remember it more often.
And it doesn't matter if I'm harvestable or not. I'm not scared about that.
It's just that another birth would be traumatic, because birth is more traumatic than death a lot of the time.

Peace and Love to all of you. And thank you for being so patient with me.
Sometimes I speak without giving it much thought.
And I can think the worst about situations and things.

[...]

But I am better now. Sad, but better.
Though now I have a general anxiety in my solar plexus that feels like weight pushing in on me.

I suspect it will not be a billion years back. We walked this path already and made it through, so in our souls is the guidance we need to make it through. The challenging journey will be a little bit easier for us because of that. Plus we have all of our soul family/Higher Self/etc available to offer us assistance on request. Watching us hack our way through, sending waves of light out around us, inspires other people to try too. Is it a hard task? YES! One thing I remember is deciding to leave. Because we've walked it before, it will be easy enough for us to make it back if that's what we want, but maybe we'll take our time on this revisit of the road back home so we can help hoist people up over the rocks too. Brothers and sisters in sorrow, hearing the cry for help, but we cannot be the best possible help to the people here if we show up as gods. This has played out in the past. For example, if some of us are Wanderers from Ra (I don't believe I am) our soul group would then have past experience messing up by putting a physical but higher evolved presence here to help and have seen why that wasn't the best decision.

I don't remember being born, so who knows how traumatic that might prove to be. I remember a death. I periodically have nightmares about it. Currently I have very mixed feelings about being a child again. I fully intend to live into my aged years and be a wise old woman though, so tune in like... several decades from now.

I believe it's a good thing that you're able to isolate where the anxiety is located in your body, as a beginning point to healing it.