I think it is more useful to look at yourself and what you feel, to work with the opportunities you are presented with, than it is useful to find a correct way to control things. You are in a dance with your external reality and it is much like a partner and not something you should aim to control. To alter the flow of the dance is for yourself to transform, because your unconscious partner is much more transparent and without expectations than you are.
Your reality is always listening, but not in a manner that you can hope to trick. It sees you more clearly than you see yourself. It is not that useful to ponder how you should feel at things or think or word things, it is more useful to look at where you are at emotionally with sincerity and evolve from there. Think of what you want and not what you should be wanting.
You've always seemed stuck in a mentality of control. About how you should be to harvest, about how you should do things to manifest correctly, about what methods can shift timelines and so on. I think life smiles at you when you go about it with a merry heart, otherwise it tries to free your heart so that it becomes merry to the extent it seeks it.
About the challenging like "how can it get any worse", I think that is tied to your own nature being infinity and your honor/duty in realizing it. If I tell proudly that I am someone without anger, I'll see myself get angry shortly after to prove me wrong. If I say or think that I never have insomnia, I'll struggle to find sleep that night. Your nature is to be all the things If you see yourself as separate from aspects of that, you'll be driven to accept yourself for what you are and to find to love it.
It is also tied to the power of focus, pessimism digs a hole and optimism takes you out of it. Both can be tested also, like a pessimist person can have a nice event but be uncaring about it because that's not where they want to focus, or like an optimist person can be optimist only so far the wind in their back. In no single moment we see ourselves fully, that is a bit why time is spread out.
Your reality is always listening, but not in a manner that you can hope to trick. It sees you more clearly than you see yourself. It is not that useful to ponder how you should feel at things or think or word things, it is more useful to look at where you are at emotionally with sincerity and evolve from there. Think of what you want and not what you should be wanting.
You've always seemed stuck in a mentality of control. About how you should be to harvest, about how you should do things to manifest correctly, about what methods can shift timelines and so on. I think life smiles at you when you go about it with a merry heart, otherwise it tries to free your heart so that it becomes merry to the extent it seeks it.
About the challenging like "how can it get any worse", I think that is tied to your own nature being infinity and your honor/duty in realizing it. If I tell proudly that I am someone without anger, I'll see myself get angry shortly after to prove me wrong. If I say or think that I never have insomnia, I'll struggle to find sleep that night. Your nature is to be all the things If you see yourself as separate from aspects of that, you'll be driven to accept yourself for what you are and to find to love it.
It is also tied to the power of focus, pessimism digs a hole and optimism takes you out of it. Both can be tested also, like a pessimist person can have a nice event but be uncaring about it because that's not where they want to focus, or like an optimist person can be optimist only so far the wind in their back. In no single moment we see ourselves fully, that is a bit why time is spread out.
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