Is Harvestability Just a Guess

[AnthroHeart]

I'm bipolar, so I'm up and down.
Right now Tae's post made me think about how amazing life really is.
I should not make excuses for who I am.
No matter if I have another or several more human lives, I will eventually get back to where I'm from.
And I can't complain.
I am thankful that I can choose to be nicer to people.
That I can do something that helps others.

I wish I could use my book to help others.
I do sigh a lot because I have to take a deep breath, and evaluate where I am, and where I have come from (in this life).
How far I have made it.
I am posting in this thread rather than starting a new one, because I believe it produces less distortion to do so.

Right now I am listening to a meditative audio. I can't complain. I have it so good. I don't even work.
My therapist and a psychologist said I can't work.
I do get a little bored at times.

I try to meditate on "I am". I believe my divinity to be true. I just wish I could remember it more often.
And it doesn't matter if I'm harvestable or not. I'm not scared about that.
It's just that another birth would be traumatic, because birth is more traumatic than death a lot of the time.

Peace and Love to all of you. And thank you for being so patient with me.
Sometimes I speak without giving it much thought.
And I can think the worst about situations and things.

I don't think I really want to be an anthro.
You get hot in the summer, and itchy with fleas and stuff.
I tended to think of them with both love, and a perverted nature.

But I am better now. Sad, but better.
Though now I have a general anxiety in my solar plexus that feels like weight pushing in on me.