Has anybody here struggled with anhedonia?

[EvolvingPhoenix]

I'm kind of the opposite. I feel Love so intensely that it can hurt. It causes peace because anxious energies can't get in there.
Most of the time, not all the time.

But I only want one thing, to feel God/Creator's Love as much as I can, nearly all the time.

Little things get to me like when my mom is shouting cursing like she has Tourettes when she misplaces her glasses or some other silly thing.
At those times I usually retire to my room. We spend most of our times in our bedrooms. So I don't see her much.

I only want more of this peace/Love that is quite pleasurable. But I do worry about things like finances.

I ordered the book "I AM That" which is supposed to be pretty good, and possibly enlightening.
I do like these spiritual philosophies and deep thinking. Though I am not able to produce much of my own original deep thoughts.
I can usually only parrot what I hear or read about from other people.

I'm coming to learn one doesn't need to be a deep thinker, just very present. This is a difficulty for me. I'm glad you can feel so much love. I feel depression instead. Or I just feel bored. No peace and love really. Although I would like to feel those things.