Quitting marijuana, music

[Cainite]

I've given up weed for the most part, and every time I have a puff, it does nothing to make me feel good like it used to. I'd say you're smoking to numb pain and dull yourself to emotional turmoil. That's what makes you an addict.

Allow yourself to feel what you're suppressing. Feel it, as shitty as it is. Feel it. You'll get the urge to smoke every now and then. Hell, I had the urge earlier today and almost smoked some scraped up resin I had saved in a small mason jar. But the fact is, I chose not to do it and just feel my pain and if the suffering becomes to unbearable, that's the time to say :f*** it! I wanna live by my own virtue purely for myself, because I'm tired of suffering!" That or kill myself, but I don't think I'll do that. I've still got too much to lose.

So I think you just face what you're suppressing. It sucks but you've gotta face it. Besides, weed will stop being fun at some point, mark my words.

Well, no one would feel better if for example they are concerned about something troubling. at times it makes one feel a lot worse in fact.

It's fun to me still if I do less.. also if nothing bad happens at the time. there's no suppression of feelings. but yeah some aspects of me won't surface as much and may remain suppressed.. I get your point.

Congrats btw, Sooner or later I will be free of it too! I certainly do feel weak in this aspect. not denying that.