Is it better to be spiritual?

[MangusKhan]

I don't think my path is shamanism though, because I haven't faced death or felt like I was dying.
Sure, my schizophrenia has caused me fear, but I am on meds now and don't get that fear any longer.
If I need to take that path then I will.
But I don't have the strength, if I need to.

As I understand, it is not the schizophrenia which causes fear, but the fear which causes schizophrenia.

The psychotic drowns in the same waters in which the mystic swims with delight.

The difference between the psychotic and the mystic is how afraid they are of the infinity that lies before them. The fearless mystic is enlightened by the contact, while the fearful psychotic cracks under the pressure.

Also, didn't you say you had done DMT before? I did DMT once and was convinced that I had died. It was a big relief to discover that my body was still alive and waiting for my return. One time my idiot friends gave this neighbourhood kid some DMT and he was so frightened, he just couldn't come to grips with what he had experienced. He was accusing them of having killed him long after the drug wore off. So I think DMT does allow one to face death while still continuing the incarnation. I don't recommend anyone try it though.