Is this a cold decision?

[Cainite]

Thanks for the replies everyone.

As I was reading your posts, suddenly something I can't describe happened in my mind. it then linked itself to a dream I had (not recently). the dream was about close relationships. I had this very good friend and even though we were in a hostile area, I was enjoying the dream.
He fought some people for me. I could do it myself but I chose to not do it.. he was angered. this always happens with my friend in reality actually.. she gets very angry when people are rude to me and specially when I respond with generosity and remain silent.