Message in a bottle

[Infinite Unity]

Let me just butt in again to say that the spirit guide thing is indeed useful. I've been continuing the beach sessions with the calling-on of my guides, and on request I have been shown in full force the deep complex of negativity which exists within my self. There is still much work to do, and a large and painful etheric crystal to dissolve in the left side of my neck. Thank you blossom for creating this thread and providing the inspiration to begin looking seriously at my own past.

Question for Agua:
Say one had lived a blessed life, wonderful parents, wonderful childhood, wonderful everything, and yet one still had by some means developed a severe negative complex in one's mind/body/spirit, how would that person go about understanding this and healing it? You are always bringing up the function of childhood trauma in the development of negative energy patterns, but what should one do if they believe the source of their issues exists beyond the veil, in a previous life? As far back as my memory goes, all the way back to near-infancy, I have been "evil".

I don't even understand what it is I am forgiving/seeking forgiveness for, yet the feelings of grief and guilt are overwhelming.

Would you mind elucidating on the etheric Crystal in your neck? I find that interesting.

Well creator there is only one. Our nature is that when we focus on ourselves, we become increasingly imbalanced. We usually, when in this configuration, blame others For what we deem as the source of the problem.

When we focus on others, and truly try to understand them, and appreciate them. We become much more stable, much more focused. These others are stopped being seen as a source of the problem, to being the very solace and harmony we so ache for and seek. The beauty of every moment is exquisitely created in the seeming passage, and fraility. All wrapped and hidden with in Infinite potential.

To know that indeed your days our numbered. That beautiful girls as well. The dog you so love, our children....Dive in and enjoy. The fear of commitment is rooted in the fear of oneness/loneliness. As I have found all fear to be traced back to.

I personally love life, and this earth, my family friends. I love it all. However I find myself more and more resonating with my death.