Message in a bottle

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Hi Blossom, 

Thanks for sharing and I'm sorry to hear that you've attracted long-term negative attention.

I believe that I understand that what sometimes makes these traumatic experiences more difficult to deal with is the belief from your family and friends that none of this is real and it is therefore somehow your fault or creation.

My compassion goes out to you as I have attracted negative attention over 20 years ago and it's only really eased in the last couple of years, although I'm not totally free of it yet.

DON'T GIVE IN!!!! That's their intention in their interaction with us, either convince us that there's no point continuing in an effort to make us end our incarnation or at least, neutralise our ability to serve. Fight for "yourself" first and then you can concentrate in fighting for others.

You are an "atom of the Creator" and therefore have infinite worth, which is the last thing they want you to realise - but I'd suggest getting yourself through this before worrying out your polarity or how you express that polarity.

I'd suggest that for now, don't worry about whether or not you're a "good person" in you own, or any one else's view - you are divine and you will persist and overcome this!

With much experience with negative greeting AND very difficult lessons in the dream-state, I'd like to point out that not all grim dreams are necessarily negative greetings - some are just very difficult ( from out current Human perspective ) lessons vital to growth from benevolent entities.

Regardless of your, mine or anyone else's confusion and trauma born from our experiences as Human beings, there is a complete and permanent Spiritual support-system in existence for you, me and every other entity ( Soul ) in the universe...

I believe that it does not matter how you presently perceive this network of metaphysical assistance / support, whether you call them "Spirit-Guides", "Guardian Angels", or your "Higher-Self", they are there and I think they don't care what you think they are or call them - but you must genuinely ask for their help and on a daily basis. 

They "help" will come through in dreams and meditation - so if you aren't meditating daily - I'd strongly recommend spending some time in silent thought, if possible, every day. Asking for help is not selfish, it's how Love know's it's time to serve.

I've made considerable progress by every night asking my "Higher-Self and Social-Memory-Complex to heal, teach and protect me" and they have / do.

One thing I'm still not clear about though is if there is a threshold of sincerity you have to cross in order to actually receive said support in the dream-state.

To conclude, I'd also suggest letting go of any grim awe you may still have for these entities and I've found it very useful to perceive these entities as nothing more than slightly annoying insects - strive towards the ability to sweep them away in your mind as easily as you would swat away a fly! 

Hang in there man - I promise it will get better!

L & L 

Jim 

   

It does brings some ease when someone else can listen and believe me.

Does that negativity sometimes come back at you at full force? Or is it completely eased compared to before?

I feel like I've forgotten something important, not just the knowledge, but the belief that I am indeed a part of the whole.

It feels like you're right, it doesn't matter what I'll call these angels.

Thank you for the words of kindness and strength.

The seance itself has no effect like bonding. These Entities were alerted of your presence through the seance. It also lit up or showed them your distortions/imbalances. As one works magically there are measurable effects in time/space.

The working of magic will only temporarily protect you. The best way forward, is an efficient use of catalyst. It's that these Entities are gaining access, or manipulating you through blockages and imbalances. At the end of the day, and the right pov/configuration, it can be seen that these Entities are pointing you right to your imbalances. Regardless of how the negative one sees it or it's motives.

At the very heart of it all, it comes down to one choice, all the choices througout our lives, are drawn up, contained, or issued from this one choice.

Tell me some of the things you desire, that you don't think our in line with your inner true self? What do you want but deny yourself due to "circumstances". L

If it chases me for more than 10 years, it's not considered bonding? Hm.

I feel like these imbalances are related to constant unsatisfied sexual desire, or lust.

A few weeks ago I had a dream where a woman was on top of me and she was holding me down and doing sexual acts while I tried to get away. She was laughing in a crazy way and saying things like "isn't that what you want?" and I felt wavy / thick like energy leaving my body and going everywhere, like being sunk in a swamp.

If you don't clean your dwelling regularly in certain places, mold will grow in damp/moist, dark places.

Negative astral entity attachments are, in many interesting ways, like black mold. They grow over time in the right conditions. And just like black mold, there is no one time cleaning that will get rid of it forever, usually. The domicile must regularly cleansed, which leads to more of a resistance to such things growing.

Formulate your own banishing ritual, and say it as prayer, blessing, every night before you go to bed. Firmly claim custodianship of your dwelling and strongly AFFIRM that only positive beings are welcome in your space.

You can elaborate on the ritual if you like, or use one someone else has created, but repetition is the key. Love and light should be the building blocks of whatever ritual/blessing/prayer you create. I would advise making it short enough that you could easily repeat 3 or more times in a row without it being too much of a chore (if you only do it once, what separates a magical act from a normal act?). I would end the ritual by visualizing love imbued light radiating and charging every particle, nook, and cranny of your dwelling (including yourself). As you visualize that white light, say mentally or physically, emphatically and strongly: "I purify and sanctify this dwelling in the love and light of the one infinite creator, for the law is one."

This is just a suggestion. Once you create that, the more you repeat it, the stronger it will become. Everything is a muscle. A regularly cleaned domicile will not provide the conditions for the so called metaphysical mold to spread or grow.

Last winter I had a mold outbreak throughout all my apartment ceilings.

I would clean it with every cleaning fluid I could think of and it came back like nothing.

Eventually when summer came I cleaned it properly and had it repainted, but there are still places where some marks are left.

I'm fairly sure it's not alive though.

Would you say negative energy can reside in spots I usually do not clean?

Like say underneath the refrigerator etc?

I will try and create myself a prayer that I can repeat daily.

Thank you.

I'm sorry but I can't really offer any advice better than that which has been given. It is also a point of interest to know that this "Satan" I signed contract with is almost certainly not the same "Satan" which is attributed to the rule of the elites on this planet, and stands in direct opposition to the false god, Yahweh, of the Abrahamic power structures. As for the feeling oneself bound to negativity, I find that the more I pierce the veil of illusion, the more impossible it becomes to actually serve myself or deny service to others. I think the spirit guide thing is valuable. I used to hate the idea of these nosy beings watching me masturbate (before I learned to harness that great source of energy), but all the talk on these forums of trusting and welcoming the spirit guides got me thinking about a different perspective. This morning, while laying on the beach, I sincerely welcomed them and asked them to guide my energies, and found myself smiling with joy as what felt like a bubble of happiness rose up through my body. So it seems there could be some real value in the practice of calling upon these beings regularly.

You brought me some clarity and faith, I feel like I want to try and surrender to these spirit guides that help us.

I will try and post if I am successful in that.

My spirit guide does seem to be able to mitigate my anxiety. I asked to feel like he feels.
I didn't feel love, but I felt some relief from the bad anxiety.

Maybe what they mostly feel is being at peace?

I feel like that is also what I would mostly want for myself. Just some peace..

Interesting way to look at it!

I was never fully okay with the idea of any being that's not the way rest of the creator is! Those that don't evolve and are angelic helpers or sth.
If they do exist though, then faith may be needed.. otherwise they would still feel like infringing. (Correct me if I'm wrong plz)

I usually contact my own higherself. and when I want to help another being, I ask her/his own higherself.

Maybe you could try asking the real Yahweh for help in this.''Yod Heh Shin Vau Heh'' is the new name if I remember correctly.
Ra said the entity feels responsible for earthlings.
My other suggestion is some sort of sacred water in nature to fully place yourself in. we have these kind of waters in some places here.. people believe they are of healing/cleansing quality.

Anyways, may you find peace.  

Me too, only lately I started thanking these unincarnate angels for their help.

I must have prayed so much for their assistance without considering their position.

I don't know about contacting the real Yahweh, perhaps I'm doing that unconsciously when I just utter the word in my mind? I wonder.

Good idea about sacred water, doubt I can find any around here though.

I do have a virgin chalice that I rarely use in special meditations when I'm in really desperate times.

Thank you, peace to you as well.


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Also I have a question regarding meditation.

I find it a bit difficult at times to meditate in silence because there is so much noise around me being in a city.

So I listen to some kind of melody while meditating and that helps me clear my mind and body.

What are some of the general thoughts regarding this kind of meditation technique?

I read one time a Q'uo session where Q'uo suggested Carla about silent meditation, and Carla replied that she has difficulty with that because she constantly hears music in her head.

And Q'uo didn't exactly reply in a manner saying that there is something wrong in that, or perhaps I misunderstood the session.

But regardless the answer was unclear and not brought to question again.

So it makes me wonder, because music helps me ease the chatter in my mind and dwell deep in meditation.