On being STS as a metaphor for being a programmer.

[Louisabell]

I think your determination and focus to work with a fine touch on your personal growth is admirable. Only a few come to realise the great benefit of working behind the third density veil, and therefore fully utilise its potential. Besides, isn't this the thought which makes us so willing to come here in the first place?

I believe the question to be asked here is what is your motivating factor for working on yourself? If you become more proficient, more powerful, to what ends do you desire to yield that power? I think the answer to that question will give you more insight into whether you are STO or STS polarised or just seeking comfort.

Over time I am less focused on fourth density graduation as I can't seem to shake the feeling that there is a lot of escapism in the thought of it. It feels like I am not fully honouring the life that is being lived here and now, not accepting humanity for what it is, as oppose to what it may become in a future point of time.

I think STS space/time is pretty tightly controlled. There are probably grand wizards who run the show, and I'm not convinced that they would do such a poor job of it that their supplicants would be living in squalor. Maybe some negative social complexes would be gritty and brutal, but others may look paradisaical compared to how we live now. All that order and powers of temptation has to create something impressive, right? I also imagine a STS entity would come to willingly oblige being subservient because they respect power, and power differentials are obvious outside veiling. Some people thrive in those environments (think climbing the corporate ladder), others will fall apart. So maybe one persons' hell is another persons' heaven? Who knows?

But I am curious – why do you think you need to have another incarnation to make certain minor changes? Why not make them now? I'm sure your options of incarnations will dramatically increase outside the veil.