11-13-2018, 12:34 AM
It sounds like you're on the right track. Understand the primal reasons for the occurrence of the disease, and work from there.
I've noticed a similar phenomena. Where if I ejaculate, for a day or so afterwards there is a lethargy or greater susceptibility to negative impulses (negative meaning away from my positive intentions). This being likely due to the fact that the ejaculation is a release of tension or desire from the body.
From my research it would simply correlate with the realization that men tend to relax greatly after orgasm, but if there is work to be done, then perhaps the relaxation is not the answer.
From your dream, it would seem clear that your gift is the disease, this forcing you to work towards your own good, as you are literally unable to assist others in any meaningful way. This seemingly indicating that excessive STO is an imbalance, as is excessive STS. Leading me to wonder what kind of a harvest occurs at 50 and 95 percent. To heaven? Or perhaps to hell.... So your teacher then is the steps or fight to get yourself to a place where you are able to positively impact reality as opposed to simply being supported by it.
I've noticed a similar phenomena. Where if I ejaculate, for a day or so afterwards there is a lethargy or greater susceptibility to negative impulses (negative meaning away from my positive intentions). This being likely due to the fact that the ejaculation is a release of tension or desire from the body.
From my research it would simply correlate with the realization that men tend to relax greatly after orgasm, but if there is work to be done, then perhaps the relaxation is not the answer.
From your dream, it would seem clear that your gift is the disease, this forcing you to work towards your own good, as you are literally unable to assist others in any meaningful way. This seemingly indicating that excessive STO is an imbalance, as is excessive STS. Leading me to wonder what kind of a harvest occurs at 50 and 95 percent. To heaven? Or perhaps to hell.... So your teacher then is the steps or fight to get yourself to a place where you are able to positively impact reality as opposed to simply being supported by it.