Hello and welcome! It’s great to have to you here 
Anything can be labeled as catalyst. One can use anything as catalyst. This sounds more like pre incarnative programming. Before taking incarnation, you along with your higher self may have chosen this physical condition as catalyst for growth and learning. It may even be karmically related to your past lives. Meditation can help us to see where this catalyst is coming from. So I would just say to keep doing what you’re doing.
Unrelated, but you said you didn’t like being counted as gifted as a child and just wanted to be like everyone else... I can totally relate to that. I was placed in gifted programs in elementary school and I didn’t want to be there. I didn’t want to fee any more different than anyone else. I doubt this feeling has blocked your indigo ray. Indigo ray is harder to penetrate. If it were blocked, your second and fourth chakra will also exhibit distortion and blockage. I could be wrong. You’ll have to determine whether certain qualities of your being are distorted. Such as your sense of self worth (2nd chakra which if distorted will block 4 and 6.) I no longer am self conscious about being different than others. I’ve determined to know myself and become more and more myself. If you have an attitude like that, then there shouldn’t be significant distortion to block your indigo ray chakra. Others may have different advice. Just my opinion.
Carla, the Law of One channel, was bedridden for a large portion of her life. It was a pre incarnative choice to be frail and weak for her. That catalyst only made her stronger. She was one of the most spiritually mature peaceful happy people I’ve ever seen. She’s such an inspiration because she was content to just be herself. And that light shone brightly.
Anyway, thanks for sharing! I hope to hear more from you
Anything can be labeled as catalyst. One can use anything as catalyst. This sounds more like pre incarnative programming. Before taking incarnation, you along with your higher self may have chosen this physical condition as catalyst for growth and learning. It may even be karmically related to your past lives. Meditation can help us to see where this catalyst is coming from. So I would just say to keep doing what you’re doing.
Unrelated, but you said you didn’t like being counted as gifted as a child and just wanted to be like everyone else... I can totally relate to that. I was placed in gifted programs in elementary school and I didn’t want to be there. I didn’t want to fee any more different than anyone else. I doubt this feeling has blocked your indigo ray. Indigo ray is harder to penetrate. If it were blocked, your second and fourth chakra will also exhibit distortion and blockage. I could be wrong. You’ll have to determine whether certain qualities of your being are distorted. Such as your sense of self worth (2nd chakra which if distorted will block 4 and 6.) I no longer am self conscious about being different than others. I’ve determined to know myself and become more and more myself. If you have an attitude like that, then there shouldn’t be significant distortion to block your indigo ray chakra. Others may have different advice. Just my opinion.
Carla, the Law of One channel, was bedridden for a large portion of her life. It was a pre incarnative choice to be frail and weak for her. That catalyst only made her stronger. She was one of the most spiritually mature peaceful happy people I’ve ever seen. She’s such an inspiration because she was content to just be herself. And that light shone brightly.
Anyway, thanks for sharing! I hope to hear more from you
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