10-16-2018, 04:25 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-16-2018, 04:51 AM by AnthroHeart.)
(10-15-2018, 11:13 PM)flofrog Wrote: Wolfe I find too the idea of going home so relaxing... and then I am like, life is awesome, so messy and tragic and fun and awesome, who wants to cut it short and then be unable to add more good stuff in space/time...
I can't tell you how much I appreciate your heart here. I was a little scared. I was so tired. And it's cold.
And not much food left and just enough money to make it till next month with no help from my mom who lives with me.
I don't know why I bought her a car. She annoyed me so much before, and then I decide to do something nice for her.
I don't understand myself sometimes.
I add love to my dog Loki. No one else loves him like I do. If I left, my mom wouldn't love him at all. I know he'd miss me.
I was frustrated because my book didn't do well even after 2 tries. And I put myself into so much debt.
A psych computer test said that I can't work. And I fear bosses. And I still hallucinate a little.
My mom keeps saying that I can work and I'm just making it up.
She claims though that she can't work.
She projects her stuff onto me. Like her dirty bathroom. Because I don't take out the trash right away, she says that when I die I'm going to live in garbage dump.
She says that in my next life she's going to see to it that I become a maid and have to clean up after other people. She always wants to control me.
My bathroom gets dirty too, but hers is cluttered bad.
I had to change my avatar. The vibration of "God" was too high for me.